Is treated me seoul garden today.. and heck it was like going to the zoo. So much food! Even my famous tummy cannot handle it. There were like 6 different type of chickens, there were prawn, beef, spaghetti, rice, white noodles, yellow noodles, french fries, ice cream, and fucking free flow of cherry ade!!

So much for keeping fit ey. so anyways it was probably the only highlight of a really really mundane week. i need a really really long holiday. this sucks and bangkok seems a really nice idea bazzy wazzy. something to look forward to.

i dun know how to write a journal anymore.

cheerios

How does one feel when he gets stood up on his birthday?
He feels pathetic.
He feels sad.
He feels embarassed.
And most of all he feels alone.

I dun blame anyone nor do i need excuses or reasons.
But please just dont say i was never there for you guys when u needed me to be.

thanks alot

cheers

"When you're not breathing I beg for one more breath with you,
When you're silent, I hang on to every word,"

turning 20 makes me feel so damn old, 20 years of life filled with probably the best memories i could ever hope for, are now past me. One more year till i could really make the uncertain step to adulthood (and RA MOVIES!!!).

damn i really need to start acting my age.
whats my age again?????
whats my age again?????


okie in this picture she looks fat and old.
but dang shes damn cute on camera though.
bah bored.



What it do babyboo

Yeah, little mama you lookin' good
I see you wanna play with a player from the hood
Come holla at me, you got it like that
Big Snoop Dogg with the lead Pussycat
I show you how it go down, yeah, I wanna go down
Me and you, one on one, treat it like a showdown
You look at me and I look at you
I'm reachin' for your shirt what you want me to do

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)
I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

Typical
Hardly the type I fall for
I like when the physical
Don't leave me asking for more
I'm a sexy mama (Mama)
Who knows just how to get what I want and (Want and)
What I want to do is spring this on you (On you)
Back up all of the things that I told you (Told you)

You been saying all the right things all night long
But I can't seem to get you over here to help take this off
Baby, can't you see?
How these clothes are fitting on me
And the heat coming from this beat
I'm about to blow
I don't think you know

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

You say you're a big boy
But I can't agree
'Cause the love you said you had
Ain't been put on me
I wonder (wonder)
If I'm just too much for you
Wonder (wonder)
If my kiss don't make you just
Wonder (wonder)
What I got next for you
What you want to do? (Do)

Take a chance to recognize that this could be yours
I can see, just like most guys that your game don't please
Baby, can't you see?
How these clothes are fitting on me
And the heat coming from this beat
I'm about to blow
I don't think you know

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

Come on baby, loosen up my buttons babe
Loosen up my buttons babe
Baby, won't you loosen up my buttons babe?
Loosen up my buttons babe

I'm a make you loosen up my buttons babe
Loosen up my buttons babe
Why don't you loosen up my buttons babe
Loosen up my buttons babe

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

youve gotta admit the pussycat dolls are pretty hot and videos like this, it has reason enough for 12 year old boys, who jack off to their videos in the comfort of their own home, to buy their cds.

u know i wish i had a dancers body, much like nicole of the pussydolls. i was hoping ns would help me achieve dat. but alas, ns has unbelieavably made me more fatter. im a whopping 65kg!!! now. a far cry from the 50kg before i enlisted. some smart alec told me it was muscle building up. kaninya my stomach mcm jelly muscle keapa. ok no use talking shit abt it. must start training and stay away from the nasi lemak. its a must if im gonna get ready for the boatman course this coming july.

If maybe u are wondering, it has been confirmed, i will be going to brunei this august, and its gonna be for a year. but i have to get that boat license first. News about how the boatman course is conducted isnt dat good. First of all its a pysically intensive course which we have to go through with basic leadership course trainees from sispec. Now anyone of u ppl know what shit sispec traines have went through, plz imagine what shit im gonna face. A driver in a combat environment....

matila aku


oh well out with parents on my birthday.
hooray.......

cheerios

so the 5 day extended weekend for me has come to an end, aint satisfied with the outcome of it but what the hell. At the very least i finally got to watch a movie with the best company.



it was an okok movie by my high standards.... but it finished too fast and there were some sad moments. and me being the total basket dat i am. for those who haven watched the movie, PROFESSORE X AND CYCLOPS WERE KILLED BY JEAN GREY AKA PHEONIX.

later going out for some family day crap at escape theme park. Its the day ive been dreading and been trying to escape(pardon the pun) from but what the hell. Maybe ill just wear a mask or a hood and disguise myself from the people there whom i wish i would never ever see again. but what the hell.

cheerios.



"its all the same,
sex in the air,
the cross is all the same,
youll be the one who always care,

how can you promise the world?
how can you promise your heart?
when its always searching.....
but im just like you,

i dun wanna deny my heart its chance to feel,
i dun wanna deny my soul something real,

is there anything left in this world dat
would satisfy me?

do u really love him, outside?
second chances scribbled on the walls,
but i tink the conseqeunce is just,
something more feels soOOooo exciting now?

and this black romance is so intensive,
and this desire is worth the fighting,
but is it worth ?
the sliding down...
but im just like you,

i dun wanna deny my heart its chance to feel,
i dun wanna deny my soul something real,

is there anything left in this world dat
would satisfy you and me?

and it keeps repeating
and it keeps repeating

just left the part of me dat needs some space,
repeat the look i see in your face,

reminds me of truth
reminds me of the reason for us to stay
reminds me of truth
reminds me of the reason for us to stay,"

has been quite a while since ive updated this knnccb excuse for a blog so maybe i guess its time for a little update.

This past week has been probabaly the most tiring week ive had as a driver or a national serviceman in general. The ridiculous back to back details, the late nights, the early mornings, and the fucktard officers that all of you civilians put your trust in to defend the nation.

I cant even begin to describe the bastards that made me stay on a freaking saturday watching their recruits dig and redig, dig and redig, dig and redig their stupid trenches from 0800hrs till about 2000hrs which happily happens to be the last ferry timing out of tekong. And what made me even more pissed off was when i realised earlier today that those bastards booked out immediately after we went back to our bunks.

Baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Another week to go before the stupid companies pass out. So dats a little reason to cheer about. U know weeks like this make me a appreciate what i had before this army thing.

The time when i thought i was in love, the time when i had a job that i hated but loved, school, the friends that i used to hang out with alot, fridays out at tampines, the once upon a time band that we used to call underyourass and the freedom. oooh dammnn. i really miss the freedom. Makes me wanna shout out loud like mel gibson in braveheart.

FREEeeEEeeeeeEeeEEEEEEEEEDuuuuuUuuuuUUhHHHHHHM!!

oh all is well.



Wat dissapoints me most is when u have waited and waited for a particular movie to come out. But when it did it sucks. Well dats what most reviews in the internet world have described it.

But im still gonna watch it.
soon.
i hope.
alone.
if i have to.


Best song.
Best band.

For now.



bah. booking in later.
cheers

I was on the taxi on the way home when the sky was just so beautiful last friday.
It just literally burned.
Unfortunately i had no camera with me but luckily people ard the island had the same idea as me.

Lawa kan??

weylo guys

well this week has been a blast.

not

field camp was really really tiring as i performed something out of my job scope.
As a driver cum 'storeman'.
Of course its not something that im required to do as a driver.
Loading and unloading all the stores down the tonner.
But as a person it does not sit well with me to stand by the side while the storeman and the specialists(sergeants) do the work.
It was fun especially when i knew almost half the people in the company having come from the same company during my bmt.
Talking to the people who gave me hell during those 2 months gave me a different perspective of them.
Good to know theyre human after all, especially my platoon sergeant.

Will be attached to cougar company for their field camp next week.
Heard their encik(company sergeant) is a real fucker.
a point to note.
a person to avoid..
hope dat goes well.

Anyways ue has been slacking for quite awhile because of me going awol for a few weeks.
And the lack of practice means that were not gonna play tomorrow.
I personally feel that sometimes we play gigs just for the sake of playing it.
So whats the point of playing a show without actually progressing.
Without convincing people in the crowd that we are actually worth the entry price.
Without believing that we actually did well enough to pat ourselves on the back.

But make no mistake about it i do enjoy performing.
Even though sometimes the response from the crowd is a confidence killer, just being on stage with the spotlight on you, is wow.

Anyways since ive started this driving shit and all.
Ive been quite lost in the music scene.
Not knowing any new bands and being updated makes me upset.
So listening to bands like veda, envy, the acceptance or the yeah yeah yeahs makes me wanna pick up my guitar and write a tune or two.
Alas, guitar botak, takde string.
HAISH.

oh well.
Nights and Cheers

am home today
its gonna rain again
like its been these past few weeks
i say hooray to dat!!

getting my wisdom tooth extracted was certainly an experience.
thankfully the dentist was pretty hot.
so i didnt mind getting my tooth tugged at with the ferocity of a tiger on lithium.
it was painless.
thx to the aneasthetic.

but it was quite a different story afterwards.
i almost fell face first during role call as the anesthetic began to wear out.
the pain was killing me so bad.
so when i finally got back home i collapse onto my bed.

had some porridge before finally getting some pain killers.
felt a whole lot better after dat anyway.
oh well going through the same process again.
at least im better prepared.

so tomorrow i have field camp detail
say hello to mozzies all over again.
knnccblancheaowei.
but looking on the bright side
being a driver isnt as bad as i thought it would be.
all u do is drive, sleep, and when u dun do both of dat, well u wait.
wait wait wait
so a whole lot of waiting equates to boredom.
so entertainment is a must.
magazines, books or handheld games.
all must be done tactically of course.
if not those knnccb warrant officers or those knnccb csms are gonna get ya some extra duty.

anyways ive noticed dat the only time im obliged to type in here is when i feel like a fucktard.
so contrary to all of your beliefs, im not a sick sad little boy.
in fact im having fun most of the time.
so duncha guys worry aight.

mcm paham

hurhur

cheers

u know its funny how we think weve gotten over somebody or something only to come across something that was synonymous with a past event with that particular someone. example being fucking friendster!! or that small little bracelet that was intended but never got the chance to give or all those loosely hidden photos or whatever

ooooh stupid weak heart.

oh well driving along tekong highway at night alone is a really spooky experience.
u guys should try it.


cheerios

Oh My

heylo kids

well life has been strange for me this past few days.
Its like hitting a certain realisation that everything u had hope for and believed in are just all complete utter bs.

Someone not too long ago told me ns is the time when u make new friends.
Friends who will be with you for life.
That someone though didnt tell me how do i go about doing the 'making new friends thingy'.
I mean mostest realest as much fun i do have laughing to all their stupid jokes i dun really see myself dancing the night away at mos or club momo or double o or hardrock every weekend.
i certainly dun see myself holding a bottle of vodka or stout or red wine or jack daniels or tiger or gin and tonic or whatever.

So how can i be close friends with people whom i dont share any common activities with?
Not to mention the only topics that seem to be in discussion almost everyday are sex, girls, sex, clubbing, drinks, clubbing, girls, sex?
I admit i was or maybe still am extremely interested listening to the way they tempt girls to bed or the different sexual positions theyve tried but it does get a little tired after awhile doesnt it?

i mean who the hell are all these girls anyway?
and why so easy ah?
macam ginik aku pun nak try ah!

values are so last summer already.

haish.
and yea the jibes i have to endure from them.
'ala sidekni mana ade nightlife nya orang'

i say fuck u.
there so many freaking ways to have fun other than clubbing or having sex with an underage fat kid all the while filming ur puny little dick.

i wont list out what these activies are.

and one last thing i swear im gonna flip if i hear daddy yankee's bullshit pathetic excuse for music on the radio one more time.

u guys have got to listen to real music.
and i miss my ipod.
can i have my ipod back.
pretty pretty please.

booking in later.
cheers

well days have come and gone by so incredibly fast
i am now an officially licensed driver in the army
Took me two times to pass the damn tp but it was an achievement for me to have scored the best among the whole group 43 with just 4 minor pts.

The whole course was a fun experience that i will not forget for quite awhile. I was lucky to get an instructor who was incredibly patient with me.
Then there was all the different ppl and characters there.
Everyday was filled with laughter.
Crazy bunch of boys.
but oh well every beginning has an ending.
so here we have to say byebye again to another group of friends as we return back to our home.

I LOVE TEKONG!!!

anyways gig days has passed and we were utterly horrible on both days. i dun wanna sound too critical but really. we just really really sucked really really bad. Lack of practice maybe. or maybe we lack that extra something in our songs. all our songs tend to end up sounding the same one way or the other. hmmmm i wish ue was more flexible and open in song selection and not be tied down to a certain genre. but keyword:wish. next gig 30th of april. hope it turns out fine.

oh well swensenss tm!

wednesday is TP OH!!
TP TP OH!!

im quitely confident of passing it which is rare for a person who lacks confidence.
but really even my instructor says i will pass it barring any accident.

but first up i have to pass my HSP.
i cant really explain what dat is except that i have already failed that twice
but whatever

anyways today is gig day and i have not touched the guitar for close to 3 weeks.
i haven even learned the chords for clouds and skyscrapers
so much for making an impact in the local scene.
HAHA
we'll be lucky if there will be actual people watching us and not dozing off
but okie la actually.
HA HA

underworld:evolution last week was awesome.
ok ok kate beckingsale was awesome
but we want more nudity!!!
heh heh

ok im running a little late
smell yea guys later

cheers

parking a 3 tonner has got to be one of the hardest things i have done for quite awhile.
goodness gracious!!
mai kanchiong!!

so u could imagine how happy i was the first time when i got that damn thing into the lot without hitting any of the poles within 10 mins.
well me is happy happy boy.

but driving the bloody thing is surprisingly easy.
much much easier than the land rover.
certainly an experience driving around public roads pretending your michael schumacher at 50km/h.
with all those knnccb taxi drivers cutting into your lane and those damn motorcyclists!!
i swear im gonna run all over you bastards!!

anyways.. ze band is playing on back to back weekends on the 12th and on the 18th.
punkrock returns and celebrations at home club.
im really excited at the thought of playing a show at the substation gardens.
ive always wanted to to play there.
the really unexciting thought though is that the ze'band is really really really in its worst condition for quite awhile.
but bliargh oh well.

going out soon.
UNDERWORLD BABE!!

I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU
I CANT BREATHE WITHOUT YOU
I DREAM ABOUT YOU
HONESTLY TELL ME...
THAT ITS OVER!!!!

cheers

Was sent home again on thursday cause my eye is getting worst coupled with me shivering in cold sweat that night.
My bunkmates were pretty worried.

went to see the doctor juz now and i got another 3 days mc untill sunday but i will have to book in tonight.
ive missed way too many lessons.
im just hoping this doesnt turn into anything serious.
the doc said if it doesnt get better on monday hell recommend me to see an eye surgeon.

thats too much doncha think?

anyways lately ive been feeling extremely lonely, its like my friends have dissapeared from the face of the earth.
i dunt even look forward to weekends anymore.
i dun have anywhere to go, i dun have anyone to hang with, i dun have anybody to talk to.
its pathetic, i know.

and maybe its me.
maybe its me whos ignoring everybody.
but only maybe.

last night i had so much trouble sleeping, no thanks in part to this stupid eye.
lying down on my back and feeling steady tears streaming down my neck every few minutes is frnakly very irritating.
so naturally my mind began to wonder.
and haiyah.
i miss her la.
from the countless blog surfings and shit, i saw her names numerous times in blogs of some of my ex colleagues.
shes having sooooo much fun while im at the other end of the spectrum.
haish haish haish

i cant wait to go overseas

on to more happy news

PLAINSUNSET IS BACK MOTHERFUCKERS!!!!
i hope they play baybeats man this year!!!!
fucking hell its gonna be a blast if they would!!!


cheers

ok i have a fever

Am home with a bad case of conjunctivitis.
My face is tear stained with all the fluid coming out of my swollen left eye.
So pretty much spent yesterday in the sick bay from 0800 to 1500hrs trying to sleep on a row of chairs cause the medic doesnt want me to spread my disease on to the beds.
So u can imagine me sitting there alone with nothing to do for a couple of hours.
Boring...

2 days of lessons missed.
I sincerely hope i dun go out of course cause just when im getting a hand of driving.
fuck this had to happen to me.

anyways, ze'band will be playing on the march of 18 at hougang mall or some crap of a place.
first gig for the year and hopefully not last.
unless u are rich and love our band plz dun bother to come.
:)

my bill just came and its a whopping $80.
I dun even know im using my phone dat much.
Shall have to cut down on smses.
but its still a mystery why its dat high.
bliargh.

booking in tonight
cheers

Well here's a good man and a pretty young girl
Trying to play together somehow,
I'm wasting my life, you're changing the world,
I get drunk and watch your head grow

It's the good times that we share
and the bad times that we'll have
It's the good times
and the bad times that we had

Well it's been a long slow collision,
I'm a pitbull, you're a dog,
Baby you're foul in clear conditions
But you're handsome in the fog

So I need some fine wine, and you, you need to be nicer
For the good times and the bad times
That we'll have

Sometimes we talk over dinner like old friends
Till I go and kill the bottle,
I go off over any old thing,
Break your heart
and raise a glass or ten

To the good times that we shared and the bad times that we'll have
To the good times
and the bad time that we've had

Well it's been a long slow collision,
I'm a pitbull, you're a dog,
Baby you're foul in clear conditions
But you're handsome in the fog

So I need some fine wine and you, you need to be nicer
For the good times
and the bad times we know will come
Yeah
I need some fine wine
and you, you need to be nicer
you need to be nicer
you need

For the good times
and the bad time that we had
Sit

Good times, bad times
Sweet wine, bad wine
Good cop, bad cop,
Lapdog, bad dog
Sit.

wootz so im off to driving school in 5 mins.
its like a second bmt.
9 weeks of cussing from the instructors and i hope pass this.
and i hope i get that overseas posting.

"nearly 3 months have passed....
its like she doesnt exist...
hello miss, who are u again?"

till saturday guys

sunsets at tekong part one

sunsets at tekong part 2

check it ya'all

cheers