fuck . wat a day. Firstly flunked my fucking maths test cause as usual.. did not study so i blame myself den went home and picked up the ringing telephone to hear my sister crying. Guess what. My darling 'angel' of a sister was caught smoking at skool. Yeah it was interesting to find out my fathers reaction to that. but i didn't bother that much cause i was too engrossed on my smackdown game. Damn that triple h)Guess, maybe i'm not a good brother. I could have prevented all this but den again i could have made it worst. well anyways jamming left a hole in my pocket. A large hole. not sure how much i took out. It was certainly the most expensive jam session i had. It was at garage studios and one hr costs us 16 bucks. multiply by 2 and hey. Yea.. that expensive. gig 2morrow and i'm fucking nervous. trying hard to remember the lyrics and drinking as much water as i can. Just to relax my throat. the set that we are playing does seem very short. Proabably less than 20 mins. but nvm. The faster the better. i'm really stoked that zura has confirmed that she has joined us permanently. she has an excellent vocal range and can't wait to go into the studios and record 'my star'. anywyas see you guys at the gig and those taggers.. love you all very much and thx for the luck wishing.. hehe :)


i donno why she had to do this??? i loved her the way she was... but with all people whom i look up to and admire.. they always seem to dissapoint me.. this includes michelle branch.. u all think i might be happy.. but fuck shes like the girl next door, the stylish one who uses her music to attract attention.. not her body... shes like the ct nurhaliza of the west... but haiz.. wat is the world coming to??

waiting for the 'wild boars' show to start and its freakin boring, passing time chatting with nurin,ili,apis and shah.apis giler yey yey!! hehe and hey today i saw one of the wild boars in my skool... forget his name though.... Hhaha madness... An ACTOR had a sip of my vanilla coke!! omigoD!!! heheh


anyways talking about actors and acting, i tink i wanna become a part time actor.Dun laugh but I mean how difficult can it get, seeing as how bad the acting is on suria and ch5, might as well i try my luck right?heheh anyhows i can't believe that Dawn Prima Ria, the tall lanky girl from sec 5n1 is on tv. Yes, the loner who walks like a peacock around the canteen and is always with her boyfriend after skool. The one with the beehive hair.. the one with the.. hehe nvm. anyways gig in 3 days time and i haven even finished writing the lyrics for one of our originals.. die die liao... weee

hey dudes and dudettes love you!!

in class right now and counting the days before our gig. HEhe tak SABARNYE aku. hhehhe. Anyway The past few days, me and the guys have been talking among ourselves how old we are. i mean when you turn 18 its like u feel so so so OLD. I mean the sec 4 abg abg and kakak kakaks, the people whom we used to always look up to and also admire ae now our juniors. Amazing heh? No wonder the the sec 4 nowadays look so young. hahha k k i'm blabbering again. Goodnight!

god is really fair. I complained alot yesterday about the weather being hot and all and i prayed today wasnt gonna be that torturous. And hell yeah It rained the whole day at escape. So all i did was sit at the flume ride station and talked with ruzaimah, farid, roswina and fahmy. Learned more about them. Roswina who looks like a 13 year old is actually a year older then me. Surprise surprise. Shes so small. haha reminds me of suhailah. Well maybe not that petite but yeah. hahha anyways. working again 2morrow and i completely stoked that my mother allowed me to borrow 500 bucks from my bank a/c to buy my guitar for the upcoming gig. But she made me promise that i have to repay back the full amount before i could spend again. No problem. HEHe i'm so happy. Happy like a bird. weeeee

listening to: plain sunsett- photos of us

work was fucked up today. It felt close to hell . And the majority of the people there were indians. I'm not being racist or anything but with the heat and all. U get the picture. Anyways. My parents are in johor and they are still not home and i'm so hungry. I need food. Hearing huda with her roti kirai makes my stomach grumble extra hard. Hmmz madness. And yeah its official. She is joining us full time. I'm quite happy and sad at the same time. Now i play rythm guitar for both my bands. Not The LEAD VOX but just the lame rythm guitarist that everybody ignores. heheh but at the same time i'm happy for ue cause the weak link, my voice is finally gone. HEhhehe haiz. Wish there was something more, that i could say to you..

here i am updating again. The net is so boring yet i still waste my time in front of the freaking comp. I wanna have a conversation with someone but i'm sure like all of our past conversations, it will end very quickly cause she has to go teach her brother or go to the toilet or do assignments or talk on the phone. o well everybody has his or her own reasons yeah? anyways lets talk about 2003 shall we? well i shall always remember 2003 as the year of relaxation. Seeing that i spent half the year lying on my bed, watching tv and generally doin nothing there are few things dat could probably stick on my mind when i tink about 2003. 2003 was when your-e had or first gig. 2003 was a year dat introduced me to the post hardcore screamo emo scene. 2003 was when i got posted to to ite tampines. 2003 was the year that everything seemed to suck. and thats fucken sad.


favourite cd for the year 2003: taking back sunday(tell all your friends
favourite song : theres no i in team
favourite moment: performing for the first time
least favourite moment: receiving o level results
least favourite song: the cheeky song (the cheeky girls) this will forever earn mtv a place of hatred in my heart
least favourite band : good charlotte(blergh)

close friends whom i have learned to trust that i made in 2003: Shah, Fir, Adi, First chapter (love you guys!!)

haiz i'm becoming lamer and lamer... YEY

listening to: b2k-bump bump bump

hmmz i'm currently thinking of a hip hop nickname for myself. Dun ask me why. But when you have nothing to do, strange things crawl around in you head. So hit me with something aight? haha. Anyways, finally got myself a hp. My first ever hp and its a second hand 3330. Yes its a lame phone but the soul purpose of a phone is for u to contact and be contacted. SO theres no need for me to get those fancy fancy ones. i guess or most real hopei will be getting a dgcam by next month. It all Depens on how much i get for my next pay which is 2 weeks away. Hoping to earn an extra 200 bucks this few weeks.. den yeah weee get myself that cybershot that i ahve always wanted. But den again. Hmmmz how bout that guitar? blergh!! neeD MONEY!

u suck and dats sad

man hearing my own voice on the demo makes me puke. I dun need those people on the tagboard to tell me i can't sing. I know it for a fact. But anyways i read the new tag board entries on the ue website and it made me smile. I mean if people keep visiting our site and flooding our tagboard, we must have done something right rite? heh! SO anyways todays jamming was great but i'm fucken struggling with my stories your alibis. The guitars are kinda complicated and the low tone that they sing during the verses.. i can't reach that. But i'll try my best. End of the road is fucken fun to play. Especially since i am not singing so i'm free to move about and create an ass of myself. Hehe. Jump up here and there.. move about. Showing the middle finger to allen and other things... etc etc. I would love to say we are ready for the gig but we are not... seriusly not. The tightness is missing in most of the songs. Especially originals. Have 3 more jam sessions to fucken correct it before the gig. If not we are completely screwed. And i Mean screwed... WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE pop

In Iwad class right about now. My favourite class this term. Everything revolves around web designing which is sweet. Learning how to create forms now and hey i'm sitting right in front. HehE. Anyways gonna have jamming with the edgies later. Just hoping everthing will turn out well. 2 weeks to go and rabia just told me we are second band which is better than first band. SO i hope there will be a good crowd turnout.

Maybe i should hate you for this.. ?

just finished reading the band site. We got dissed.. again. But i really dun mind. Branded ripoffs and getting threats to get beat up and all of dat. Were used to it. Imagine being beaten up just because we play bad music. No wonder. Anywyas to zack, rashid and dan. I sincerely apologize for the mess i made of our demo. If it was another person singing, the demo would have been way better. I really do tink it would be. on the 31st, hopefully will be the last time i would be singing for underedge and yeah most probably the last time you'll be hearing underedge. The Overedge rip offs and the useless espionage wannabes. goodbye.

listening to - radiohead - karma police
feeling - taking back sunday

had fun yesterday at jam x. The bands were cool, the music was great, x's hafiz was magnificent, though i didn't stay to see who won, i certainly hoped tissue won. Heh they were great yeah. But still the picture of Hafiz playing his amazing solos are still in my mind. Rock never die!! yeah! hehe.

Anyways I have always felt that i have a free mind when it comes to music. I will listen to almost anything. punkrock,indie alternative, pop , heck even hip hop, well some forms of it, But everybody has exceptions, mine being techno and metal. Yeah~~ metal... i dun like metal, dun ask me why, but i just dunt. It just doens't appeal to me. Dun get me wrong, i respect metal guitarists, i just stand in awe at the ease of which they play their solos and riffs and sweeps. Amazing. But i dun have to like the music they play .. do i?? Though after saying all dat i guess i would contradict myself by currently stating that i am learning to play a metallica song on my guitar. Heck its taken me hours and i still haven got it right. Heh and yeah Nura J is my dream malay girl!!!! this... after bumping into her and i mean 'bumping' into her in tampines ummmz sweet

listening to - taking back sunday- your so last summer

ive come to a part of my life where everything has been set and my path has become a one way street. After completing my 2 years i will serve in the army for another 2 years den go back to studying in polytechnic or even stop studying all together and become an It specialist or some sort. This is what i hope my next few years of my life would turn out. But at the same time i'm hoping that something extra would pop out and make me drive my car off this one way street. Something else, something exciting. And i need that 'something' right about now. something that could pull me away from this vicious circle. U know like the song semi charmed life from 3rd eye blind? Those lyrics suit me perfectly. Just feel so redundant. hmmmz o well anyways... i'm really hoping that all my friends come to the asthenia gig. I need as much support as i can get. the poly kids, i want them to be there. Not so much the ite bunch thoug but fir adi and shah. I would love it if u guys came. Just to see you guys when i'm up there should give me the motivation to give a kick ass show. hehe as if. But i'll try my best. I'm only worried about my vocals. All this negative feedback is really a downer but heck i i dun really care. Just hoping to brush it aside.

huda ur becoming a babe ;) heh..

Taking back sunday- Your so last summer


She said "Don't.
Don't let it go to your head.
Boys like you are a dime a dozen.
Boys like you are a dime a dozen"
She said
"You're a touch overrated.
You're a lush and I hate it."
But these grass stains on my knees
they won't mean a thing
And all I
Need to know
Is that I'm something you'll be missing
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that far
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that...
I'd never lie to you
Unless I had to
I'll do what I got to
Unless I had to
I'll do what I got to, the truth
is you could slit my throat
And with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt
And all I
Need to know
Is that I'm somethin you'll be missing
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that far
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that...
'Cause I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions
This'll be last chance you get to drop my name
'Cause I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions
This'll be last chance you get to drop my name
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar.

underedge: my star


sweet dreams my love
i hope u sleep well
watching you is peace
and i can't think of anything
as beautiful as you
a shooting star
can't make me turn away
for im fixed upon your face
your innocence
your sweet embrace
dun go
i want you here with me
cause thers nothing in this world
that could take this moment away
and when u breathe i take you in
can't explain what i feel inside
and i wish that i could
just be the one with you all night
and when u wake up plz just know
ill be right there where you are
everyday, in every way,
u know that ilove you
dun go
i want you here with me
please stay
forever in my heart you'll be(thanks to ath for this line!!!)

and when u wake up plz just know
ill be right there where you are
everyday, in everyway,
u know that ilove you
and when the stars go up
i lie awake and tink about your face
the way u smile the way u laugh
the way u look at me and say....

my gosh me first and the gimmes gimmes end of the road...??? wtf song man... u guys seriusly wanna play this??? o well..... anyways.... took my incubus cd when going out with my parents... listened to old favourites like pardon me and idiot box... wow amazing stuff.. mike einziger is a genius... i just surfed guitargeek.com and saw his effects rack... fucken loaded with stuff man... my long term goal is to get all his effects.... haha den i can pleasure myself with all the weird sounds... hahah short term goal though is dat fucken ts-9..... fucken shitz...

ouh shit my fever is back.... i guess i wont go to skool tomorrow... again... haha weee... anyways... suppose to have jamming with the first chaps today but can't cause my family booked me already.... family come first in almost everything i do so.. sorry tweet... i just realised my schedule is freaking tight man.... last term our timetable was like 8 to 12... 8 to 11 but now 8 to 5 8 to 3 8 to 4... madness sia... no time to jam and no time to hang out with the kids... both my bands can only jam on weekends cause some members are tied with school and ns.... so its mad man... sheesh... gig coming in 2 weeks... and i'm writing a new song.. so we will be playing pretty much new stuff on this gig...hope it turns out well...

today... i made a bubble with my nose..!!

only a crazy person like me would leave a 300 cheque waiting at his workplace for over a week and still not collect it... hah... weeeeeeeee anyways have u guys ever been irritated by this one word.... this word makes me so sick and irritated that i pissed all over my underpants... yea man... this word is LERR.... knn i get this all over in msn.. ler this ler that ler this ler that... if ever that word comes out again.. i swear i'm gonna shat man... well anyways... suppose to be working.. but decided i'm too sick too work.. so called mashoor and here i am designing a header pic for my lame blog... decided it was too simple.... so shall be completed in a few mins

heh stole this from rabia's blog... unbelievable!!! we're playing!!

just typing in before i buzz of to skool.. been really sick the alst few days... fever reaching as high 39.5... so obviously did nothing except playing smackdown and need for speed on my ps.... but kept losing cause my head was feeling giddy ... so anyways after skool gonna go jamming ... reluctantly that is.... i'm like in totally no position to jam but have to sacrifice for the sake of band members who have been calling me non-stop while i was asleep the past few days... ok skool starts at 2 yet i'm still on my com typing this out... haha nice eh... so long..

*note1* girls are not animals in the zoo... do not wave at them if u do not know them....

*note2* do not pretend to be gay in public bus

*note3* fat apeks suck!

in visual basic class right now... can't wait for it to be over... its obvious that nobody is listening to the lecturer right now... all caught in their own world... jus end the damn thing larh

where did my 150 dollars go??

weeee wat a few days... didn't have much time to waste on my computer... cause since my black beauty came into my life.. i have other better things to do.. hehe so i just reached home from work ... a very exhausting day indeed.. so lets go back to the 31sof december 2003 shall we... so yeah the pit went really great... enjoyed it a lot... let me remember who the people were... yusoff,dan,din,alif,allen,kartika were there when i arrived.... den i left for sim lim square.... dun ask me wat i searched for... hehe so anyways when i returned... alan,id,sub,aizat,kyn and wada had joined the group... it was sure fun... hotdogs hotdogs and more hotdogs... laughed a lot talking crap with the guys... the only people who didn't seem to have fun were kyn and wada... but can't blame them ... we never layan them oso.. heh... so people came and people went.. zack and a one legged yazid came den the rch group den syahmi and his friends den wan captain and his clubbers den din berok and alam with his friend.... den fizah came with this cute girl ... donno her name... heh really cute.... den yan kopeng came.... threw him and zack in the water... rogol sam and din... and did other crazy things hehe haha and den i wanted to go to escape cause its 5 dollars man.. but nobody wanted to go with me.. so decided against the idea...

did not sleep... cause the tent was full of people and didn't even lie down till about 5 when me dan and yan went to cheers.. ate miyogo talk crap den met aizat,alam,alam's friend, kartika,allen, and walk walk at the swamp... nothing much there.. but the temptation to look back is really.. really... sheesh... so after that decided to go home cause i was really tired.... chilled with my black beauty for a while den slept...den worked on friday... and here we are... on saturday.... watching wrestling right now... interesting heh.. ahaha