Tuesday, December 30, 2003

today was fun really fun.. hehe jamming went well im really please about the way our new song is going.. got potential.. need some touching up... but anyways... after that went to parkway parade and 'shopped' at giant for the pit stuff... so much food.. hopefully little people.. hehe counting down the new year by the beach... well hopefully ar eh... so anyhows.. me,dan,din,kat,alip,allen and yan kopeng slacked at bk and talked cock and shit and stuff.. its really nice to talk cock..u guys should try it some time... heh so anyhows... i suddenly remembered a topic opened up by dan earlier today.. and it was about relationships... well for me i have not yet been in a relationship yet so i guess i'm pretty virgin about all this stuff... why am i still single? i donno.. maybe i'm shy.... maybe i'm a boring person... maybe i'm just too lazy and preoccupied with other stuffs or izzit possible that i'm gay??? hahaha no no... can't be.. i'm very attracted to girls... my first ever crush was when i was in sec 1... yeah that was like my biggest ever crush.... had it for 2 years.... had it through 2 of her bfs....had it through urmz... okie nvm.. well in sec 1 only one person knew about it... that faizal j a.k.a buluman... me and him were like bestfriends back then and we confided in each other a lot... back then she wore this distinctive yellow bag and whenever i saw it i would like freeze and my feet were like bound to the ground... haha yeah man that was mad stuff... hehe so yeah but in sec 3 we happened to be in the same class and watever attraction i had for her died at that time... so yeah sec 3 was a crazy year for us.... readjusting to a new environment and all ... so no girls really attracted me in sec 3.... that was by far my favourite year... ehehhe class chairman rafiee ... so anyhows... in sec 4 yeah... that mad year......

so it just so happens that we got to know all this sec 1 kids from 1e5 1n1 and so on and so forth... and i remembered during dnt the 1e5 class would walk by and we would all stand at the door looking at syiirin and dian.. ehahhae madness.. den there was athena... seriusly she scared me back then... and yeah i never noticed the 2 big pair of eyes that was looking at me in the number 3 bus... sampai kene tegur sak pat msn... hahha didn;t really know it belonged to dian farah... so yeah den we got to know the cedarianz... that was an even mad chapter in sec 4 history... all thanx to circles99 and he gift of irc... hehe i could enver forget suhailah and aqilah... both those girls will always be remembered.. haha den of kos lost contact with them... but yeah still the good thing about the whole episode is dat i befriended han... whom i still contact now... really cool girl who introduced me to finch and static lullaby and i introduced her to the local scene.... so yeah... and yeah how could i forgot that girl .... hmmmz dun wanna talk about it... made me a really big mess.... so screw u ok!! and den there was DEwi... hahah a small crush that escalated into one big embarassment for me... with friends like dan and allen who needs enemies?????? haiz that was like one totally mad year man... but for me it was the best experience and i would love to put on that tpss uniform and go to school again... seriusly i wood... i love those memories.... haiz... eheh so yeah thats my CcCrushes story... i dun have anyone in mind now though... would you be??? :)


wats with the misai man fie????
lal
phew... okie the past few days has gone passed without me even noticing it... well first on wednesday we beat team rockconcertheroes 11-5 i tink and i played 50 mins ... so yea i was very happy indeed... so went holiday on friday and came back yesterday.. wah interesting story heh??

Tuesday, December 23, 2003

hey guys its been awhile since ive updated.. been busy with work ... had no time to go online.... and yeah i made my first enemy at work.. that ice queen yati absolutely gives me the creeps man.. i can;t work with somebody who has a scowl on her face everytime and can't even seem to say a decent hello... hope i dun get paired with her again... so anyways

[.xra-fieex.] EXAM RESULTS OUT AND I FREAKING PASSED!!!!!! says:

wooohooo i passed my exams.... yey!! and i'm going to celebrate by playing with the east hammers 2morrow against team rock concert heroes in a friendly match.. been awhile since ive played so i'm definately looking forward to it.. YEY... and yeah i passed my ite .. yey!

Thursday, December 18, 2003

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whoah yesterday was freaking tiring demoralising... first of all i had no shoes to wear.. cause my normal working shoes had muttered its last breath and died wagging its ugly tongue at me... so yeah i took my half dead adidas sneakers to work... lucky nobody noticed... so when i was about to start my shift.. i noticed that there was no more locker keys left... so i went to the lockers and put my bag in one of the vacant lockers which was not locked and went off to briefing in the hope to find somebody that i can borrow keys from... once the briefing was over and i had found a key... i realised my bag was nowhere to be found... so i panicked and told my supervisor.. and got a heck of a scolding for being so careless... so it turns out that some of the crew had found the bag and put it in the lost and found.... so yeah.. balls... had no mood at all to work after that.... especially when there a huge amount of people there... in total it was an average of 150 people an hour... so yeah it was freaking tiring... so anyhows...

gonna watch lord of the rings this sat.. anybody wanna join me???


Wednesday, December 17, 2003

shit its almost 3 am and here i am staring at her pic which is set as my desktop wallpaper... shes so pretty man i can't take my eyes of her.... haiz fish.. u lucky bastard u!!!!

Tuesday, December 16, 2003

i tink i'm sick... and dats sad... completed some parts of the underedge site... i'm moving the site to freewebs.. cause brinkster now has some stupid advertising banner... watching me, myself and irene now... jim carreys the shit~~~ yeah...

haiz madness... yesterdays jamming was fun... zack experimented with his zoom pedal.... made all sorts of weird sounds with it.. pretty cool... anyways going off on holiday on the 26th... to kl i tink.... hope i can buy a dgcam before the trip.. i wanna take pictures of the trip... but if i do not have enough money.. go kl den i buy ar... should be more cheaper over there....
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heh madness.....

Monday, December 15, 2003

breakfast sessions with my mother never fails to entertain me... its where she tells me some new stories... and so it goes on that my family on my dad's side used to live in tekong.. and all these islanders keep some very weird stuff and practice alot of majic.... majic that is used to harm people... or majic to benefit one's self.. like keeping ayuls to steal money and stuff... and thats the reason most of the elder aged people on my father's side had difficulty in dying... some are already on their death bed but can't seem to stop breathing.. u know the 'sakit tenat' ? i donno larhz... ehehe so yeah back then my late grandfather used to be a communist... and he inserted 'susuk' into his face to make him look very fierce.. and he even took some ilmu to make himself invisible.... awesome eh?? my mom told me he used to walk right into enemy headquarters without nobody seeing him.. i wonder what would i do if got to be invisible... hehe.. but nowadays of course... most have thrown away their "stuff".... i mean where do they wanna store them yeah? so yeah... maybe tonight i'll write more of this stuff... heck after all the ghost stories that i have collected the past few days from my relatives .. i donno if i'm gonna sleep tight today... after all.... two of my former houses were apparently part of a haunted area.... NOW THEN THEY TELL ME..... sheesh

anyways jamming in half an hrs time with the edgies.... i really wanna try stockholm syndrome man... one very awesome song....
just got back from hari raya outing with my family... came across many interesting things... one of which was a house (a kampong style house) which was situated right smack in the middle of a field surrounded by hdb flats in punggol... and yeah the field was about the size of 4 football fields combined and there right smack in the middle..... an uninhabited house..... hmmm mysterious...

"use me holly ..... c'mon and use me"

Saturday, December 13, 2003

hey guys ...... getting ready to jalan raya for the last time this year... heck need some money so yeah.. SORRY DAN for not going to the gig..... if it was on any other day i swear i would have gone... so yeah yesterday after work.... met the guys and went to the starbucks opening.... and hey my fav ska band was performing... plan 2 fool... so yeah the crowd was lame.. wattya expect it? was at tm man.. hehe so yeah took some pictures... some of it was deemed rubbish and promptly deleted... (stares at alif).. so dats a good start to my photography career.. so anyways.. boo!!!

Thursday, December 11, 2003


woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
the guys are out and i'm stuck here at home.... o well yesterday work was a breeze.... the kite flyer was easy to operate... not to mention it rained for about 2 hrs into my shift.. so yea lepak..... anyways..

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Wednesday, December 10, 2003

weee work starts in 45 mins... and i'm all set and ready to go.... the sky is dark and i'm hoping it will rain.... lepak sia if like dat... gaji buta.. hehe anyways.. it looks i wont be able to go see dan perform with the heroes this saturday.... many reasons come into mind.... work, family, and hazewan's going to join his brothers in arms, so hmmmz.. yeah hopefully i could go.... man my stomachs rumbling.. i just ate this cheese and egg pratha which costs 2 bucks and heck it was not worth it man... haiz anyways...



the mesh cap morons yea!!


heh...

Tuesday, December 09, 2003

ok looking at my list i know i'm pathetic-> upgrade computer.. vans xl2.... ps-2... electric guitar most probably will cost me $1500.... like as if i have dat much money.... my mom told me about some of my relatives... this guy married this woman who became insane... he used her for his sexual pleasure... the woman gave birth to 7 children... they were all given out... none of them stays with their mother.... the guy has no job... and he even married again... and his new wife gave birth.... and he still doesn't bother to find a job... so after hearing that story.. yeah i was taken aback... i mean here i am with a good life... and i further wanna throw my money away for some stupid stuff.. stuff which i dun need... o well this has been one emo entry... and yeah goodbye to her.. i tot she was the one... she no longer is... shes officially gone from my life... o well... who needs love to be happy...
its raining..... an ideal condition to work... unfortunately i'm not working today... so yeah that sucks....
have u gotten yours?????

this album just rulez man... i guess they have grown up and matured into brilliant songwriters... and heck yeah blink 182 almost broke up from wat i read because of boxcar racer.. lucky they didn't.... cause this album is great and they have become serius for a change... i really love stockholm syndrome and violence... very very very creative... i tink i wanna cover stockhome syndrome with with the edgies... hehex anyways those of you have so much time in your hands and are blink 182 fans... read this...
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Monday, December 08, 2003

thursday's new album is not as awesome as their last.... i keep retracking to track no 1.... which is like my song of the month... heheaa anyways this song is dedicated to myself for earning the first 60 dollars of my pathetic working life... hahaha and i know now how difficult working life is... especially in escape... u have to wear a smile for the six hours that u are working... but that is simple for me... i am after all a fake smiler... so anyways... yesterday i 'worked' from 9 am to 12 am.... madness i tell you... but heck 70 bucks in my bag... and i earned it by drinking water and eating... whoooohoooo.... but seriusly i'm so freaking shagged.... not sure wat i wanna get from all this money.. kind of like the situation last year... wanted to buy new guitar.... in the end used all of the collection money to supplement myself in those six months of nothingness.. so this year..... granted i already have a job.... WEEE


wishlist

upgrade computer

vans xl2

ps-2

new electric guitar

blink 182 new cd




heck i'll be happy like bird if i even get one of these things...... not to mention all.. but knowing me i'll spent it all away~~~


thursday-for the workforce, drowning

Falling from the top floor your lungs

fill like parachutes

windows go rushing by.

people inside,

dressed for the funeral in black and white.

These ties strangle our necks, hanging in the closet,

found in the cubicle;

without a name, just numbers, on the resume stored in the mainframe, marked for delete.



please take these hands

throw them in the river,

wash away the things they never held

please take these hands,

throw me in the river,

don't let me drown before the workday ends.



9 to 5! 9 to 5!



and we're up to our necks,

drowning in the seconds,

ingesting the morning commute

lost in a dead subway sleep

we will not lie awake in our parents beds,

tossing and turning.

tomorrow we'll get up

drive to work,

single file

with everyday

it's like the last.

waiting for the life to start, is it always just ahead of the curve?



please take these hands

throw them in the river,

wash away the things they never held

please take these hands,

throw me in the river,

don't let me drown before the workday ends.



just keep making copies

of copies

of copies

when will it end?



it'll never end,

'til it gets so bad

that the ink fills in our fingerprints

and the silouhette of your own face becomes the black cloud of war

and even in our dreams we're so afraid the way we'll offset who we are

all those breaths that you took have now been canceled in your lungs.

last night my teeth fell out like ivory typewriter keys

and all the monuments and skyscrapers burned down and filled the sea.



save our ship

the anchor is part of the desk

we can't cut free,

the water is flooding the decks

the memo's sent through the currents

computers spark like flares

i can see them.

they don't touch me,

touch me.



please someone,

teach me how to swim.

please, don't let me drown,

please, don't let me drown.

Friday, December 05, 2003

been a long time since i last blogged.... i keep on forgetting to so anyways... yeah today work was mad... me.. a newbie got posted to the b-boat rides... and it was mad i tell you... non stop work... and i felt really thirsty and dehydrated.... those stupid kindergarten kids kept spraying water in my eye.... nabreys... but overall the work was pretty easy.. thx to yati who helped me out.... me being the forever belo person... heck i didn't even know how to operate the damn bumper boat... so when people asked me.. i just said push the button there ... and move the thing... hehehae mad sey.. blergh so anyways working 2morrow.... kiddy boat.. and i'm alone!!! sheesh.. ok nvm... going rayaing with mush in an hrs time... so yea chiowz.....