Sunday, April 09, 2006

Oh My

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

heylo kids

well life has been strange for me this past few days.
Its like hitting a certain realisation that everything u had hope for and believed in are just all complete utter bs.

Someone not too long ago told me ns is the time when u make new friends.
Friends who will be with you for life.
That someone though didnt tell me how do i go about doing the 'making new friends thingy'.
I mean mostest realest as much fun i do have laughing to all their stupid jokes i dun really see myself dancing the night away at mos or club momo or double o or hardrock every weekend.
i certainly dun see myself holding a bottle of vodka or stout or red wine or jack daniels or tiger or gin and tonic or whatever.

So how can i be close friends with people whom i dont share any common activities with?
Not to mention the only topics that seem to be in discussion almost everyday are sex, girls, sex, clubbing, drinks, clubbing, girls, sex?
I admit i was or maybe still am extremely interested listening to the way they tempt girls to bed or the different sexual positions theyve tried but it does get a little tired after awhile doesnt it?

i mean who the hell are all these girls anyway?
and why so easy ah?
macam ginik aku pun nak try ah!

values are so last summer already.

haish.
and yea the jibes i have to endure from them.
'ala sidekni mana ade nightlife nya orang'

i say fuck u.
there so many freaking ways to have fun other than clubbing or having sex with an underage fat kid all the while filming ur puny little dick.

i wont list out what these activies are.

and one last thing i swear im gonna flip if i hear daddy yankee's bullshit pathetic excuse for music on the radio one more time.

u guys have got to listen to real music.
and i miss my ipod.
can i have my ipod back.
pretty pretty please.

booking in later.
cheers

Saturday, March 25, 2006

well days have come and gone by so incredibly fast
i am now an officially licensed driver in the army
Took me two times to pass the damn tp but it was an achievement for me to have scored the best among the whole group 43 with just 4 minor pts.

The whole course was a fun experience that i will not forget for quite awhile. I was lucky to get an instructor who was incredibly patient with me.
Then there was all the different ppl and characters there.
Everyday was filled with laughter.
Crazy bunch of boys.
but oh well every beginning has an ending.
so here we have to say byebye again to another group of friends as we return back to our home.

I LOVE TEKONG!!!

anyways gig days has passed and we were utterly horrible on both days. i dun wanna sound too critical but really. we just really really sucked really really bad. Lack of practice maybe. or maybe we lack that extra something in our songs. all our songs tend to end up sounding the same one way or the other. hmmmm i wish ue was more flexible and open in song selection and not be tied down to a certain genre. but keyword:wish. next gig 30th of april. hope it turns out fine.

oh well swensenss tm!

Sunday, March 12, 2006

wednesday is TP OH!!
TP TP OH!!

im quitely confident of passing it which is rare for a person who lacks confidence.
but really even my instructor says i will pass it barring any accident.

but first up i have to pass my HSP.
i cant really explain what dat is except that i have already failed that twice
but whatever

anyways today is gig day and i have not touched the guitar for close to 3 weeks.
i haven even learned the chords for clouds and skyscrapers
so much for making an impact in the local scene.
HAHA
we'll be lucky if there will be actual people watching us and not dozing off
but okie la actually.
HA HA

underworld:evolution last week was awesome.
ok ok kate beckingsale was awesome
but we want more nudity!!!
heh heh

ok im running a little late
smell yea guys later

cheers

Sunday, March 05, 2006

parking a 3 tonner has got to be one of the hardest things i have done for quite awhile.
goodness gracious!!
mai kanchiong!!

so u could imagine how happy i was the first time when i got that damn thing into the lot without hitting any of the poles within 10 mins.
well me is happy happy boy.

but driving the bloody thing is surprisingly easy.
much much easier than the land rover.
certainly an experience driving around public roads pretending your michael schumacher at 50km/h.
with all those knnccb taxi drivers cutting into your lane and those damn motorcyclists!!
i swear im gonna run all over you bastards!!

anyways.. ze band is playing on back to back weekends on the 12th and on the 18th.
punkrock returns and celebrations at home club.
im really excited at the thought of playing a show at the substation gardens.
ive always wanted to to play there.
the really unexciting thought though is that the ze'band is really really really in its worst condition for quite awhile.
but bliargh oh well.

going out soon.
UNDERWORLD BABE!!

I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU
I CANT BREATHE WITHOUT YOU
I DREAM ABOUT YOU
HONESTLY TELL ME...
THAT ITS OVER!!!!

cheers

Friday, February 24, 2006

Was sent home again on thursday cause my eye is getting worst coupled with me shivering in cold sweat that night.
My bunkmates were pretty worried.

went to see the doctor juz now and i got another 3 days mc untill sunday but i will have to book in tonight.
ive missed way too many lessons.
im just hoping this doesnt turn into anything serious.
the doc said if it doesnt get better on monday hell recommend me to see an eye surgeon.

thats too much doncha think?

anyways lately ive been feeling extremely lonely, its like my friends have dissapeared from the face of the earth.
i dunt even look forward to weekends anymore.
i dun have anywhere to go, i dun have anyone to hang with, i dun have anybody to talk to.
its pathetic, i know.

and maybe its me.
maybe its me whos ignoring everybody.
but only maybe.

last night i had so much trouble sleeping, no thanks in part to this stupid eye.
lying down on my back and feeling steady tears streaming down my neck every few minutes is frnakly very irritating.
so naturally my mind began to wonder.
and haiyah.
i miss her la.
from the countless blog surfings and shit, i saw her names numerous times in blogs of some of my ex colleagues.
shes having sooooo much fun while im at the other end of the spectrum.
haish haish haish

i cant wait to go overseas

on to more happy news

PLAINSUNSET IS BACK MOTHERFUCKERS!!!!
i hope they play baybeats man this year!!!!
fucking hell its gonna be a blast if they would!!!


cheers

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

ok i have a fever
Am home with a bad case of conjunctivitis.
My face is tear stained with all the fluid coming out of my swollen left eye.
So pretty much spent yesterday in the sick bay from 0800 to 1500hrs trying to sleep on a row of chairs cause the medic doesnt want me to spread my disease on to the beds.
So u can imagine me sitting there alone with nothing to do for a couple of hours.
Boring...

2 days of lessons missed.
I sincerely hope i dun go out of course cause just when im getting a hand of driving.
fuck this had to happen to me.

anyways, ze'band will be playing on the march of 18 at hougang mall or some crap of a place.
first gig for the year and hopefully not last.
unless u are rich and love our band plz dun bother to come.
:)

my bill just came and its a whopping $80.
I dun even know im using my phone dat much.
Shall have to cut down on smses.
but its still a mystery why its dat high.
bliargh.

booking in tonight
cheers

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Well here's a good man and a pretty young girl
Trying to play together somehow,
I'm wasting my life, you're changing the world,
I get drunk and watch your head grow

It's the good times that we share
and the bad times that we'll have
It's the good times
and the bad times that we had

Well it's been a long slow collision,
I'm a pitbull, you're a dog,
Baby you're foul in clear conditions
But you're handsome in the fog

So I need some fine wine, and you, you need to be nicer
For the good times and the bad times
That we'll have

Sometimes we talk over dinner like old friends
Till I go and kill the bottle,
I go off over any old thing,
Break your heart
and raise a glass or ten

To the good times that we shared and the bad times that we'll have
To the good times
and the bad time that we've had

Well it's been a long slow collision,
I'm a pitbull, you're a dog,
Baby you're foul in clear conditions
But you're handsome in the fog

So I need some fine wine and you, you need to be nicer
For the good times
and the bad times we know will come
Yeah
I need some fine wine
and you, you need to be nicer
you need to be nicer
you need

For the good times
and the bad time that we had
Sit

Good times, bad times
Sweet wine, bad wine
Good cop, bad cop,
Lapdog, bad dog
Sit.

Monday, February 13, 2006

wootz so im off to driving school in 5 mins.
its like a second bmt.
9 weeks of cussing from the instructors and i hope pass this.
and i hope i get that overseas posting.

"nearly 3 months have passed....
its like she doesnt exist...
hello miss, who are u again?"


till saturday guys

Sunday, February 05, 2006

sunsets at tekong part one

sunsets at tekong part 2

check it ya'all

cheers

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Shes a DREAM

"Akhirnya ko berlepas ke dunia yang berbeza,
mengapa ku terlambat luahkan perasaan,
disini ku menanti,
saat kau kembali.."

Saturday, January 28, 2006

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMseng
Gong Xi fa Cai fellow kids and dogs alike.

Well dan and allen got into an accident
i tink it was on the same day.
So kids please drive carefully this new year kaez.
Remember Rafiee Loves you.

Ok so yesterdays dinner was a a blast.
never had so much food in my stomach before.
and the booze almost made me pass out.
but its all good.

CMTL just rocks la.

so yeah Operation Skank your Brains Out will commence in t-minus 2 hours.
Hope hope hope i will have a great time.

SO CHeeRs.

"Storytelling"

You say, it's not going to work out
Why do you have to tell me now?
Is there a difference
in anything you've said and done?
Or is it just the way we've been pretending?

I'm leaving, I'm leaving
Do me a favour don't even think of me now
Just when you thought this was over
It had only just begun
Just when you thought this was over,
It'd only just begun

I'm not going to let this tear me apart
She's not my only reason
"He's not my only reason", she said
You're a weakness to me
You should have sent me a note or wrote me a letter

I'm leaving, I'm leaving
Do me a favour don't even think of me now
Just when you thought this was over
It had only just begun
Just when you thought this was over,
It'd only just begun

I wish it was how we planned
Everything will work out
I wish it was how we planned
Everything will work out

You said I hated you,
If only that were true
You should have said that we'd be happy now

You said I hated you,
If only that were true
You should have said that we'd be happy now

I should have said that we'd be happy now
I should have said that we'd be happy now

I wish it was how we planned
I should have said that we'd be happy now

I wish it was how we planned
I should have said that we'd be happy now

I wish it was...

Friday, January 27, 2006

its friday and im so bloody bored at home.
Half day off from work but for what.
And it looks like im gonna have to miss mocca tonight because my unit has a function of some sort which we have to go to. Haish
and it looks like operation skank your brains out will be cancelled too.

bloody hell.

And its been a month since the break up, well i guess 70% of me has moved on.
But that 30% still lingers around me and I wish i could just take my heart and burn that 30% away.
All it took was just one single good night msg from her and it brought another tear to my eye.
I dunt understand her motive at all.
So Please stay away from me for now.
And it will be ok soon.

wootz.

Well maybe ill take a little nap.

Cheers

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Been A While Since ive posted some of my beloved photos.
So heres one from the recent outing to sentosa.

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It was pretty bright so used photoshop to tone down the levels.
My photographing skill has gone quite karat.
Gonna get start shooting again soon.
Maybe gonna go shoot my new band.

Speaking of my new band jamming with them just now was a blast.
The new band will be called 'The Telenova'.
How bout dat. heh
Looking forward to the next session wit the guys and girl.

So i blew almost all of my pay on a new phone.
My mum is gonna kill me fo shure when she finds out.
Maybe letting her use my k700i would soothe her mind.
Hmmm maybe i shall do that.

heh.
gonna go for a run 2morrow.
hope i dun fall flat on my face.

Cheers

Thursday, January 19, 2006

its been a week since ive heard her voice
And Ive been trying to put up a brave front.
INfact mixing with my driver buddies have helped alot to help me forget her.
I thought i had fully gotten over her.
But it just came full circle and i miss her so badly all of a sudden.
DAMN I FUCKING HATE THIS FEELING.

They say time would heal all wounds.
I wish time would FUCKING speed up so i can forget everything and be content with my life.
So i can move The FUCK ON.

Sitting alone in my bunk she would still be on my mind before i go to sleep.
Ill wonder what shes doing and what shes been up to.
Whether shes ok or not.

Scrolling past old msges she sent me while i was in ns brought a smile back to my face.

Earlier during the day while we were chilling in the washing bay.
i saw recruits doing the Soc.
Doing push ups.
Doing jumping jacks.
And it flashed back to my time as a recruit.
How i endured all those punishments and fucking training with her in my mind.
The constant inspiration to keep myself moving on and trying.
Knowing that when i get through all this shit, i will get to see her when i book out.

She was at the end of my 2.4km urging me on.
She was on top of that friggin pull up bar urging me to pull harder.
She was just so... haish.

I wish i had the chance to tell her all that.

My bloody luck that when i got through the whole of bmt, she left my life.
My bloody luck


Well booking in soon.
night guys

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Im back to the old bitter couple cussing freak that i used to be.
And thats a good thing.
SO FUCK ALL OF YOU IN LOVE.
hehe just kidding.

but seriusly. i hope all your relationship ends.
hehe jus kidding.

but honestly. i hope all of you get ur hearts broken.
hehe just kidding.

OOOOO WELLLLLLLL.
Life is getting better.
Today i got promoted to being a rover painter.
And my damned fingers are green.
not that anyone of u care...

so fuck yeah!
IM A STEAM ROLLER BABEY!!!
AND IM GONNA ROLL ALL OVER YOUR PIMPLY ASS!!!

thank you very nice
cheers

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Just got back from getting my photograph taken for my tekong pass.
The thing is right from primary school i have succesfully looked like a nehneh in my bus pass photos, my ic and the worst of it all. My army 11b and ezlink.

I swear all those photographers have something against me.
my primary school photo has me looking like a full blown nerd with side parting and big glasses and all
My secondary one has me looking like a turnip with that "armani tak jadi punye hairstyle".
My ic has me looking like a mat malaysia with that moustache and jambul.
My ite one photo was way too dark and i look like a freaking bangladeshi worker - no offence intended.
My 11b. haish. no comments at all.

but the latest one is pretty decent even though my eyes were looking red and it had me looking like i was faking a smile but whatever its decent enough for me to use for the next 2 years.

Anyways i got a good piece of news today. I wont be serving the full 2 years of national service. Since i was part of the so called enchanced batch.
i will be ording 2 months earlier.
which is on 060807.
so i have a year and 8 months to go!

WOOHOO.

Today time sped by pretty quickly.
it was one of those better days.

If u guys wanna know wat we driver apprentices do.
well we wake up at 0700hrs in the mourning.
Lazy pigs we are we wont bother to bath.
So we wash our face brush our teeth and fall in 0745hrs.
After the attendance taking we will do the task of cleaning the area and checking all the vehicles.
Den if the sergeants never task us to do anything else we would mysteriously dissappear from the place and mysteriously appear back at 1000hrs for our teabreak.

After abt half and hour or so, we would try our best to avoid the sergeants and sneak back into our bunks and sleep, purposely avoiding lunch, till abt 1300hrs.
Fall in at that time for attendance check den we would do whatever shitwork they ask us.
Like cleaning the tonners or carrying tyres or paperwork.
Once the sergeants has gone back to the office, we would dissappear again.
Slack till 1500hrs where we would have our teabreak.
After that just do whatever untill 1730hrs where we will fuck off from there.

This is usually our daily routine. GEREK KANZ?

the only differences to that is dat usually on tuesday and friday we have this 5km run before we are allowed to book out.

So yeah meaning i had just gone on one lung bursting run today. Following the pace of our incredibly fit mt warren 2wo mazlan. I would kill myself if i ever failed my 2.4.

hahaha oh well.

ok this entry has went on for far too long.
Will be booking in later at 1130hrs.

Im getting used to this life.
And i guess im happy.
The guys in my unit arent that bad after all.

cheerios guys.
be back on thursday.
GOOF MORNING FELLOW SHITHEADS!

its 0545 in the morning and im leaving to tekong in 5 mins time!
how splendid!

those 2 phrases just make me wanna go

L-O-L-O-L-O-L-O-V-E!
L-O-L-O-L-O-L-O-V-E!
L-O-L-O-L-O-L-O-V-E
L-O-L-O-L-O-L-O-V-E!

so heck yeah yesterday was probably one of the more happier days i had in pretty much a long time.
I was half way back to my crazy ever smiling self but.
Of course there were some times when the mind would scroll back images of the hrmph.
so when i suddenly got quiet and stared into space, My buddy raffri would stab me in my stomach or knock me in the head.
haha damn i know it has only been two weeks but he was like my bestest bud in this particular mset course.
I appreciate him listening to all of my problems and whining.

haha ouh damn SKA FEST is coming up.
and i donno who to drag to.
asked the hrmph but i doubt she would wanna go.

its been quite awhile since ive been to a ska gig.
takes me back to all those memories of me skanking and dancing like a drunk dodobird.
and yeah the bodysurfing!

but nobody listens to ska anymore...
even me.

hahaha ska fest is gonna be fun.
anybody wanna go with me please do drop a tag.

TADA.

So i decided to grow myself a moustache.
hmmm new year. new look?

once its nicely grown ill post a picture
happy imagining people

CHEERIOS!

Monday, January 16, 2006

Im back with the dailywhine.
reason i am using this add back is because

its a new year.
forget what happen in 2005.
and this is the blog where i had most of my happy memories.

TEENAGE LIFE!

back to tekong tomorrow
hope i have soemthing to do.
wootz

Love Quiz

1. The road represents your attitude towards falling in love.

You chose the long road--you take your time and do not fall in
love easily.

2. The number of red roses represents how much you give in a
relationship, while the number of white represents what you
expect in return.

You give 50% and expect 50% in return.

3. This question represents your attitude towards handling
relationship problems.

You asked the family member to get your significant other--you
like to avoid problems and hope that they will solve themselves.

4. The placement of the roses determines how much you like to see
your boy/girlfriend.

You want to place the roses on the bed--you like to see him/her
a lot.

5. This represents your attitude towards his/her personality.

You prefer the person to be asleep--you love the person as the
way s/he is.

6. The road to home tells how long you stay in love with someone.

You chose the longer road--you will tend to stay in love for
a long time.


cheers