Underedge is fucking finished!!!

urh sensitivity towards other people around you. That is one really important issue. Guess i shall be careful with what i write on my blog. I just realised that there are people who actually read it. should introduce a counter somewhere here.

anyways my attendance for skool is really bad, got called into the officecause most of my modules are below 95% which is not a good thing. Shall plan out when i'm gonna cabut to save for rainy days.

feedback for my star has been really good. I'm really happy.smiling in fact. so i guess that means we are gonna go record our ep. i'm possibly aiming for 8 songs. dunch know if we gonna use fake drums or the real thing. shall confirm with dan

blergh im tired and gonna sleep .bye.



ada apa dgn cinta??

i suddenly feel like everybody's ignoring me.. shall investigate

hello guys... listening to the dumb star song that we finished recording.. if u guys wanna listen go to dan or zura's blog and try to download from there. yesterdays gig with first chapter was urh depressing larz... made hell lot of mistakes but people there told me "huh? wat mistakes?? u guys did great!!" haha yea rite.. played songs which we shouldnt play and i hell i played stuff that it shouldnt have and left out stuff that i should have blergh... anyways... if u guys want pictures.. go wan's blog.. i'm lazy to post up.. cause i look like a fucked up faggot.. weeeeee

anyways didnt get to see 180 and never too late cause the kids wanted to go laselle.. so project playground said goodbye to the first chapter and marina promenade and headed there.... shah was there too thx dude for coming to see us... . i owe him a lot man... first he payed for the plain sunset gig den he payed for my entry into laselle.. i love him so much.. must find more friends like him. (adds to wishlist)* anyways sour grapes was awesome... and idiot asshole tried to make a fool of himself by dancing or sumthing... which was not fucking funny... idiot.. fucker... so seven sundays went on... it was kinda boring urh their set.... but i love the effects their guitarists used.. reminds me of oasis.. wat ever happened to that band??? ok den gorbachev went on... and they were awesome.. really awesome... especially the bassist... ok den my precious went up... this was the band and the reason i followed shahrul to laselle in the first place.... they were good but not the type of music i like... too much screaming... den the cops came for wat reason i donno and stopped the gig... i assume it was because of some fights... anyhows... was pissed so me fir and shah went off in search of food and had our dinner at kfc only to find out that refunds were being given out so after finishing our food... we rushed back. my shoulders almost gave way cause i was carrying my damn guitar around since early this morning... and rushing up the overhead bridge doesnt help.. so didnt get our refund cause the money had already been locked up. instead the lady asked us to drop by in a week to collect it. not sure when. so we dragged ourself out and walked towards the bus stop. i dint bother to go and meet the guys cause i was too tired. so took the bus with fir and talked about how our gig went. and reached my grandma's home at 11.

today went to work which was fun. did bumper boat with dhai and pei shi. there were both fun to work with. pei shi was fun talking to and dhai well hes a psychopath. shall not say anymore cause im tired and i wanna rest so goodnights...

Everyday when you return from your school, whether or not it is from a secondary school, a junior collage, a polytechnic, or ITE, you would probably think that school sucks.
All that work and torture under your lecturer's or teacher's homework or assignments, or tutorials...
But think about this, i mean really think. All the time spent with your classmates, all the laughter, sorrows, and happiness of knowing that your friends are there in your class.
Now imagine them gone, perhaps part of them or even all of them. You may not realise it, but when advancing into the next level of education, it is inevitable that some friends will be parting with you.
What is all this you ask yourself, what I ask is of you to think, for those who received this mail, what do those people who were once or were still your classmates and friends meant to you.
Anyone who has at least finished their o levels and has graduated from respective schools would know the feeling of parting with your classmates and friends.
Not knowing when you still see them again.
Perhaps the next day, the next week, month, years, or even decade. Perhaps one day, you would realised how bitter sweet those memories were, the fun you had with your classmates and friends.
That is why ever so often when you asked someone which is the most fond memories they had in their years in education, they would often have that sadness in their eyes, but yet, they smile briefly.
It's the memories of their school friends. Those unforgettable years of laughter and happiness in school.
Each classmate had suffered under the same stresses in school. The teachers, whether they are kind or extremely strict.
So treasure your schooling days, don't complain, because you never know when you will miss them dearly. And perhaps, shed a tear for those treasured times in your youth.

i fucking cried reading this.... finally somebody gave me something worth reading for...

gig is in 3 hours time and its strange that i'm feeling as though i'm gonna go to a normal jamming session. quite a change from the unsleepable night i had before underedge's gig... my parents are in pahang.. visiting a relative and my sis is at my grandma's so i ahve the whole house to my own. i should be practicing but as in all cases.. last min work never pays off.. so im sitting down in front of the com listening to plain sunset.. yet again... they seem more listenable since they broke up. Dont know why..... my baby is back where she belongs and she looks awesome on my guitar stand. and i hope she doesnt break on me again. anyways back to first chapter. were gonna be playing 4 songs and we are first band so please do come early today. its only appopriate that first chapter is having their first gig and also playing first band. by the next gig i tink were gonna change our name to sec chapter. yeah dudes.!!! okie kids gonna go off and meet the guys for some breakfast... byebye

playing plain sunset - plain sunset on my guitar and i'm thinking.......... i thought had i put it all behind and i tot that i could walk away but every single thing u said has sticked around inside my head . im sure u dunt remember about the things u used to tell me and the things u used to do and u used to say. but now that its over i need to hear from you to find the strength to carry on. wish there was something more that i could say but all i know now is dat i miss you. i wish you would miss me too. you make me cry every time i tink of you. And you know dat i love you. but so long........ u know we couldn't save it . theres no need for you to tell me dat your sorry. do u remember how we stood and watched the sun together?? ill treasure those memories.. memories of our plainsunset...

today was fun.. guess meeting your closest friends and talking cock was wat i needed after a few depressing days.. went only to visual basic class today and spent time surfing the net comparing the metal zone with other distortion gadgets... i'm contemplating selling my mt-2 gadjet cause i want a much cleaner sounding pedal. days of 'the more distortion the better' are over.. so pondering over the proco rat and tubescreamer. which one should i get huh?? somebody help me k... hmmz dillemma... o well recording is finished except the back up vocals which we will do some other time when zura is free again... she sang wonderfully..... awesome even... spectacular... like ili said the english version of cokelat... ahah... but i felt a ting of guiltyness when she left though.. i mean she came all the way here to sing for our pathetic demo and she went home alone... the least we could do was sent her to the bus stop or sumthing.... sheesh wat friends are we yea?? ANYWAYS THANK YOU VERY much for joing the band... u raWKk!!!

2morrow gonna fetch my baby from swee lee.. den gonna get myself a mesh cap and maybe dat adidas jacket ... and den session with the chaps for the gig on saturday... weeeeeeee go visit the original emokids------------------> they rock!!

its not nice too see two close friends fight.. its really not nice... heartbreaking even. some of us really must know when to stop. hope everything will go well tomorrow. wat a fucked up week

nieways im sick of people saying in their msn nick... 'why do you guys talk behind my back... if not happy say it to my face' and all this crap... this are the same people who will quiver when confronted... the first to cry when their backs are against the wall.. so face it eh.. u people prefer hearing it from other people... mudderfuggers .... be honest for once willl ya

continuation of a fucked up day filled with problems.. added with shah's den iskandar's.. blergh... sometimes people's problems are the ones that affect me the most... not my own.... i feel as though my life is too problem free that i go around finding shit to make me depress. sticking my nose into other peoples business so i can spend time actually thinking and appreciating that i dun have to go through all this crap. this relationship problems this peer problems. this family problems. haiz all together kids "MADNESS"

.... this has been stupid nonsensical entry..

your no jesus your no elvis your not the answer to my problems... fuck offf....

fuck being happy

u know wat fuck singapore. fuck singapore for being a country where only grades count. i dun wanna live in a nine to five life. i wanna enjoy my life while i still can. life is too fucking short to slob away with assigments and tutorials and projects and shit . fuck dat man.
whine motherfucker whine

i jus tot of something interesting... when we were in sec 3 we kids made sort of like an amazing race to see who would get attached first.. i mean me,dan,allen,din,mus,is,zack,rashid, has all never been attached before at that point of time... so it was interesting to see who would first... dat was 2years ago now....sad to say i'm still last... well joint last with mus.. haha dude u rock!!!.. . first on the finishing line though was is, den dan got attached, den zack, allen and rashid. den after skool ended din got attached and recently alif. they have all went through failed relationships and also find new ones. my friends are getting attached and reattached except me. which is a FUCKING achievement... haha so i guess i'm the one who won this stupid amazing race after all.. eh wait a min.. yeah mus.. join me on the podium yeah??

apologises to readers for crappy entry

read din's blog and there is an almost identical entry about being sensitive and shit.. heh thats nice

vibes At Marina Promenade Saturday, 21 February 2004 3pm till late Price - Free



Bands:
Rushed
Rough Cast
Y2K
First Chapter
A Subtle Revenge
Never 2 Late
One Eighty
Mistaken Identity
Generation 69

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

ish time for a whining session.

well most of my classmates probably know me as the fun gayish bastard that they can always make fun of and ahve a good laugh at.. and this persona has stucked till now... and its getting kinda old... obviously none of them can tell when i'm in a good mood and not.. and dat sucks when they keep baragging me with shit and at the same time blatantly ignoring my cries for help cause they tink here i am trying to irritate them again.. well fuck dat shit urh... and yea another thing i found out about myself is i guess i'm a very sensitive person... exp.. i walk by a group of girls and they burst out in laughter.. i immediately tink they are laughing at me... i enter a bus sit down beside an old apek. he puts his hand to his nose.. and i immediately think i smell bad... walk past a park with a pondok full of mats and they start cursing and laughing.. i immediately think its about... well i tink everything is about me... u all might call it shiok sendiriness but hell its probably about my insecurity with the way i am. yes i am fucking insecure and it really doesn't help that i wake up everyday and stare at the mirror on the end of my bed. hurh need help !!

"hello prepaid hotline??"

listening to the recenlty recorded version of my star.... and yeah the metal zone effect.... the guitars sounded terrible.. especially mine... well den again ONly mine sounded horrible.. zack used his zoom and buit in amplifier distortion so it did sound better than mine ... urh i'm so gonna throw away my metal zone.... urh.. anybody wanna buy??? blergh... and yeah no offenct to rashid.. the bass sounded horrible too... well the plug straight into amp effect.... haha but wat the hell for an amateur home recording it sounded pretty nice and okie... o well last few days went well.. saturday's jamming with first chapter was great fun , i mean jamming with the chaps has been always fun... but there was something special about yesterdays plus the heartbreak of my dear epiphone's bridge getting broken .. practically gave way when wan was tuning my guitar... haiz ... anyways was surprised to see zura turn up.. tot she had skool.. but all the more better that she could come... she is singing 'one' song called fallen with pride for us.. and let me repeat yes 'ONE SONG'! KHUS and TWEET remember that!!! she is underedge property oki?? hahahahha........

work was a bitch... shall not talk about it... gonna be a bz week.. gonna go swee lee and ask them to replace the bridge... i know i could do it myself but heck its a brand new guitar that i bought.. and its already giving me problems so yeah better fucking fix it... den of course friday is re-recording... saturday is gig and yeah sunday working again... weeepop

sessioning by the bay was hellot of fun... session with the ska bangers first while waiting for tweety and azura to arrive.. and yeah we completed the winning eleven song with horns and all.. really cool.. u guys rock... den zura came and tweety came with shain... that rockstar from msc... heh so recapped all the songs... guess im pretty prepared for it and im singing one song!! yey!!!! haha shall not reveal wat song though... den we played the winning eleven song again.. and practically made a nuisance of ourselves, luckily the police were not called in... heh so got home and got lectured by my mum which was the only blip from an otherwise fun day...

finch-bury me


I'm sorry, but red's my color now
guess you got to me somehow

this mistake is breaking me
she said, she said
Just shut your mouth and take the blame
and paint your face with the shame
I know because I know

Take these eyes and bury me
so that I can't see your face
and when you die, I won't cry
I've been there before, flesh is warm

but I've grown cold
State your claim into my veins
and scrape my face into your hands
and bend me to the ground


Take these eyes and bury me
so that I can't see your face
and when you die, I won't cry



I can't justify your eyes, your eyes
justify your eyes, your eyes
justify your eyes
Take these eyes and bury me
so that I can't see your face
and when you die I can't cry


I can't cry
I can't cry
I can't cry
I can't cry
I can't cry

p.i.e lesson today set me thinking. Well basically we had to list out our personal weakness and make it into a strength.. and i listed down anti socialness as my weakness. After confiding in the lecturer she went up and told the whole class. Interestingly enough the strength about being anti-social and having just a small group of friends like i do, is dat it eliminates all those superficial people. 'friends' who u see everyday and say hi to but dun even know your name. Friends that you feel forced to say something to avoid getting called arrogant or something. Well thats plenty of those. Shall not name any, Another strength is that u tend to be very loyal to the small group of friends that you have. Thats true, really true. And thats the reason i'm always seen with dan,din,alip,zack,allen and now fir. Yeah dude. The guy whom i almost never fail to irritate everyday at skool. You rock. Anyways 2morrow session with 'the chapters' and re-recording my distortion parts. My sense of timing is way off and my guitar playing just sux. Hoping to go republic poly open house with dan and din in between. Their intentions is to enrol these june but mine is to just go there and look at someone. Hehe :P cheerios.

in networking class and i hate it. heh fucking hate it. o well recording for bintang ku is finished, juz left the vocals and mixing . Not gonna send it for mastering cause its juz one song that we plan to give gig organizers. And yeah on the 21st underedge might be playing too but on a diff venue to the one that first chapter is playing. Priorities though lie with first chapter cause its our first gig. And heck im really looking forward to it. so yeah we shall see on the 21st. Ok thats all ok go

got home early today..... needed some rest and i'm gonna go sleep now

haiz i miss plain sunset already.. i have only begin to start supporting them and they had to disband... so cruel.. the amazing thing is that i have only gone 2 two of their gigs prior to the epilogue but yet they have influenced me so much... JON!!! hahaha anyways the show was fucking emo.. i tell you goosebumps were all over my body when they played love songs for the emotionally wounded... a song i have never liked but yet when they played it live... i felt like crying... i mean seriusly crying... boohooo cry emo kid cry.... but yeah it was a very emotional night i can see it in the eyes of jon, sham and nizam... ronny was smiling all the way.. cool fella.. hehe.. o well... recording my star on tuesday... jus heard the rough demo of zura singing the song.. its sounds pretty never too late-ish.. but hahah hope it turns out under-edge-ish in the end.... HAHA OKIE CRAPPY!!!!!!!! anyways.. screw all of you who werent at the show!! hahahahaha juz kidding.. have a nice night...!! adios

so fucking love iris riot.... sweet november has been playing on my winamp for 1 one whole month now... so emotional man this kids... hehe anyways skool starts in 15 mins time.. gonna go out now.. and SO SORRY RAIHAN!! haiz... i'm so pathetic...

urgh in class right now and im totally frustrated with this visual basic asignment. I like have totally no idea what to do. Screw this shit.. heh somebody just burst in laughter.. (looks behind) .. ahahaha the kids are watching the william hung audition for american idol.. hahha She baNgs SHe Bangs... fucking hilarious...

went to skool got locked out went home slept played games updated blog made adjustments to band site blablalblalbalbalblalbla

hey dudes.. work was fun.. go paired up with michelle.. the cute and chubby girl.. talked a lot of crap with her, she had these cheeks which i wanted to cubit cubit.. wahrow so cute... haha so overall it was fun.. den met the guys who were having a session... we are after all forming a ska band.. hehha.. and im playing drums.. yey!!! all the members are learning new instruments.. dan is switching to guitar... zack is playing the clarinet... me drumming.. alif is trying the trumpet... so yea the usual suspects are getting together to play music... sure gonna be fun man... anyways im off to playstation land...

heres soem of the pix courtesy of apis.. love u baby...!!



ramlee on the bass


turtle on lead guitars


pi-ee on guitars and whining


tiger on drums


zura on vocals



ramlee and tiger



ramlee tiger and zura

fie2e owner of this ridiculous and unmeaningful blog. and yes he is smiling at you.. please smile back.. hahhaa

asthenia went well... i guessed... hahah have to see the video of our performance to see if it did go well.. but yeah the moment i stepped into the hall and heard cheap thrills playing.. i felt so fucking out of place man... all these power bands were playing... and we are like second rated shit.. sheesh so malu.. hehe anyways.. i'm so in love with no direction... they were awesome and have always been... love their new stuff as much as i love their old stuff.. and ss9... I HATE YOUR JOB!!! ehehahe nice nice.....



anyways if u guys do wonder.. we do have a website... its Your-e heh

just finished reading allens blog and i decided to write something... and heck its about the so called scenesters... the one who go to the gigs to just skank and mosh and bodysurf but fuck care abt the music... yeah them... the ones who go to gig and dress up to look cool.... and then go home and write on theier online blog about how they skanked and moshed and bodysurf but yet there was nothing about the bands... isn;t gigs about bands performing??? they only become happy when the ska bands come up.... sure i maybe a hypocrite in saying all this bcoz i too skank and mosh and do these stupid things... but i do sincerely care about the music... and this is my fucking blog so i am fucking happy to write about what i want and hey fucking poser lutfi.. u suck balls... from biker to skater to hip hopper to mat to PUNK?? screw you.. hhaha sheesh.. dun mind me i'm so full of crappiness...

fuck . wat a day. Firstly flunked my fucking maths test cause as usual.. did not study so i blame myself den went home and picked up the ringing telephone to hear my sister crying. Guess what. My darling 'angel' of a sister was caught smoking at skool. Yeah it was interesting to find out my fathers reaction to that. but i didn't bother that much cause i was too engrossed on my smackdown game. Damn that triple h)Guess, maybe i'm not a good brother. I could have prevented all this but den again i could have made it worst. well anyways jamming left a hole in my pocket. A large hole. not sure how much i took out. It was certainly the most expensive jam session i had. It was at garage studios and one hr costs us 16 bucks. multiply by 2 and hey. Yea.. that expensive. gig 2morrow and i'm fucking nervous. trying hard to remember the lyrics and drinking as much water as i can. Just to relax my throat. the set that we are playing does seem very short. Proabably less than 20 mins. but nvm. The faster the better. i'm really stoked that zura has confirmed that she has joined us permanently. she has an excellent vocal range and can't wait to go into the studios and record 'my star'. anywyas see you guys at the gig and those taggers.. love you all very much and thx for the luck wishing.. hehe :)


i donno why she had to do this??? i loved her the way she was... but with all people whom i look up to and admire.. they always seem to dissapoint me.. this includes michelle branch.. u all think i might be happy.. but fuck shes like the girl next door, the stylish one who uses her music to attract attention.. not her body... shes like the ct nurhaliza of the west... but haiz.. wat is the world coming to??

waiting for the 'wild boars' show to start and its freakin boring, passing time chatting with nurin,ili,apis and shah.apis giler yey yey!! hehe and hey today i saw one of the wild boars in my skool... forget his name though.... Hhaha madness... An ACTOR had a sip of my vanilla coke!! omigoD!!! heheh


anyways talking about actors and acting, i tink i wanna become a part time actor.Dun laugh but I mean how difficult can it get, seeing as how bad the acting is on suria and ch5, might as well i try my luck right?heheh anyhows i can't believe that Dawn Prima Ria, the tall lanky girl from sec 5n1 is on tv. Yes, the loner who walks like a peacock around the canteen and is always with her boyfriend after skool. The one with the beehive hair.. the one with the.. hehe nvm. anyways gig in 3 days time and i haven even finished writing the lyrics for one of our originals.. die die liao... weee

hey dudes and dudettes love you!!

in class right now and counting the days before our gig. HEhe tak SABARNYE aku. hhehhe. Anyway The past few days, me and the guys have been talking among ourselves how old we are. i mean when you turn 18 its like u feel so so so OLD. I mean the sec 4 abg abg and kakak kakaks, the people whom we used to always look up to and also admire ae now our juniors. Amazing heh? No wonder the the sec 4 nowadays look so young. hahha k k i'm blabbering again. Goodnight!

god is really fair. I complained alot yesterday about the weather being hot and all and i prayed today wasnt gonna be that torturous. And hell yeah It rained the whole day at escape. So all i did was sit at the flume ride station and talked with ruzaimah, farid, roswina and fahmy. Learned more about them. Roswina who looks like a 13 year old is actually a year older then me. Surprise surprise. Shes so small. haha reminds me of suhailah. Well maybe not that petite but yeah. hahha anyways. working again 2morrow and i completely stoked that my mother allowed me to borrow 500 bucks from my bank a/c to buy my guitar for the upcoming gig. But she made me promise that i have to repay back the full amount before i could spend again. No problem. HEHe i'm so happy. Happy like a bird. weeeee

listening to: plain sunsett- photos of us

work was fucked up today. It felt close to hell . And the majority of the people there were indians. I'm not being racist or anything but with the heat and all. U get the picture. Anyways. My parents are in johor and they are still not home and i'm so hungry. I need food. Hearing huda with her roti kirai makes my stomach grumble extra hard. Hmmz madness. And yeah its official. She is joining us full time. I'm quite happy and sad at the same time. Now i play rythm guitar for both my bands. Not The LEAD VOX but just the lame rythm guitarist that everybody ignores. heheh but at the same time i'm happy for ue cause the weak link, my voice is finally gone. HEhhehe haiz. Wish there was something more, that i could say to you..

here i am updating again. The net is so boring yet i still waste my time in front of the freaking comp. I wanna have a conversation with someone but i'm sure like all of our past conversations, it will end very quickly cause she has to go teach her brother or go to the toilet or do assignments or talk on the phone. o well everybody has his or her own reasons yeah? anyways lets talk about 2003 shall we? well i shall always remember 2003 as the year of relaxation. Seeing that i spent half the year lying on my bed, watching tv and generally doin nothing there are few things dat could probably stick on my mind when i tink about 2003. 2003 was when your-e had or first gig. 2003 was a year dat introduced me to the post hardcore screamo emo scene. 2003 was when i got posted to to ite tampines. 2003 was the year that everything seemed to suck. and thats fucken sad.


favourite cd for the year 2003: taking back sunday(tell all your friends
favourite song : theres no i in team
favourite moment: performing for the first time
least favourite moment: receiving o level results
least favourite song: the cheeky song (the cheeky girls) this will forever earn mtv a place of hatred in my heart
least favourite band : good charlotte(blergh)

close friends whom i have learned to trust that i made in 2003: Shah, Fir, Adi, First chapter (love you guys!!)

haiz i'm becoming lamer and lamer... YEY

listening to: b2k-bump bump bump

hmmz i'm currently thinking of a hip hop nickname for myself. Dun ask me why. But when you have nothing to do, strange things crawl around in you head. So hit me with something aight? haha. Anyways, finally got myself a hp. My first ever hp and its a second hand 3330. Yes its a lame phone but the soul purpose of a phone is for u to contact and be contacted. SO theres no need for me to get those fancy fancy ones. i guess or most real hopei will be getting a dgcam by next month. It all Depens on how much i get for my next pay which is 2 weeks away. Hoping to earn an extra 200 bucks this few weeks.. den yeah weee get myself that cybershot that i ahve always wanted. But den again. Hmmmz how bout that guitar? blergh!! neeD MONEY!

u suck and dats sad

man hearing my own voice on the demo makes me puke. I dun need those people on the tagboard to tell me i can't sing. I know it for a fact. But anyways i read the new tag board entries on the ue website and it made me smile. I mean if people keep visiting our site and flooding our tagboard, we must have done something right rite? heh! SO anyways todays jamming was great but i'm fucken struggling with my stories your alibis. The guitars are kinda complicated and the low tone that they sing during the verses.. i can't reach that. But i'll try my best. End of the road is fucken fun to play. Especially since i am not singing so i'm free to move about and create an ass of myself. Hehe. Jump up here and there.. move about. Showing the middle finger to allen and other things... etc etc. I would love to say we are ready for the gig but we are not... seriusly not. The tightness is missing in most of the songs. Especially originals. Have 3 more jam sessions to fucken correct it before the gig. If not we are completely screwed. And i Mean screwed... WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE pop

In Iwad class right about now. My favourite class this term. Everything revolves around web designing which is sweet. Learning how to create forms now and hey i'm sitting right in front. HehE. Anyways gonna have jamming with the edgies later. Just hoping everthing will turn out well. 2 weeks to go and rabia just told me we are second band which is better than first band. SO i hope there will be a good crowd turnout.

Maybe i should hate you for this.. ?

just finished reading the band site. We got dissed.. again. But i really dun mind. Branded ripoffs and getting threats to get beat up and all of dat. Were used to it. Imagine being beaten up just because we play bad music. No wonder. Anywyas to zack, rashid and dan. I sincerely apologize for the mess i made of our demo. If it was another person singing, the demo would have been way better. I really do tink it would be. on the 31st, hopefully will be the last time i would be singing for underedge and yeah most probably the last time you'll be hearing underedge. The Overedge rip offs and the useless espionage wannabes. goodbye.

listening to - radiohead - karma police
feeling - taking back sunday

had fun yesterday at jam x. The bands were cool, the music was great, x's hafiz was magnificent, though i didn't stay to see who won, i certainly hoped tissue won. Heh they were great yeah. But still the picture of Hafiz playing his amazing solos are still in my mind. Rock never die!! yeah! hehe.

Anyways I have always felt that i have a free mind when it comes to music. I will listen to almost anything. punkrock,indie alternative, pop , heck even hip hop, well some forms of it, But everybody has exceptions, mine being techno and metal. Yeah~~ metal... i dun like metal, dun ask me why, but i just dunt. It just doens't appeal to me. Dun get me wrong, i respect metal guitarists, i just stand in awe at the ease of which they play their solos and riffs and sweeps. Amazing. But i dun have to like the music they play .. do i?? Though after saying all dat i guess i would contradict myself by currently stating that i am learning to play a metallica song on my guitar. Heck its taken me hours and i still haven got it right. Heh and yeah Nura J is my dream malay girl!!!! this... after bumping into her and i mean 'bumping' into her in tampines ummmz sweet

listening to - taking back sunday- your so last summer

ive come to a part of my life where everything has been set and my path has become a one way street. After completing my 2 years i will serve in the army for another 2 years den go back to studying in polytechnic or even stop studying all together and become an It specialist or some sort. This is what i hope my next few years of my life would turn out. But at the same time i'm hoping that something extra would pop out and make me drive my car off this one way street. Something else, something exciting. And i need that 'something' right about now. something that could pull me away from this vicious circle. U know like the song semi charmed life from 3rd eye blind? Those lyrics suit me perfectly. Just feel so redundant. hmmmz o well anyways... i'm really hoping that all my friends come to the asthenia gig. I need as much support as i can get. the poly kids, i want them to be there. Not so much the ite bunch thoug but fir adi and shah. I would love it if u guys came. Just to see you guys when i'm up there should give me the motivation to give a kick ass show. hehe as if. But i'll try my best. I'm only worried about my vocals. All this negative feedback is really a downer but heck i i dun really care. Just hoping to brush it aside.

huda ur becoming a babe ;) heh..

Taking back sunday- Your so last summer


She said "Don't.
Don't let it go to your head.
Boys like you are a dime a dozen.
Boys like you are a dime a dozen"
She said
"You're a touch overrated.
You're a lush and I hate it."
But these grass stains on my knees
they won't mean a thing
And all I
Need to know
Is that I'm something you'll be missing
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that far
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that...
I'd never lie to you
Unless I had to
I'll do what I got to
Unless I had to
I'll do what I got to, the truth
is you could slit my throat
And with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt
And all I
Need to know
Is that I'm somethin you'll be missing
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that far
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that...
'Cause I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions
This'll be last chance you get to drop my name
'Cause I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions
This'll be last chance you get to drop my name
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, you're a liar.

underedge: my star


sweet dreams my love
i hope u sleep well
watching you is peace
and i can't think of anything
as beautiful as you
a shooting star
can't make me turn away
for im fixed upon your face
your innocence
your sweet embrace
dun go
i want you here with me
cause thers nothing in this world
that could take this moment away
and when u breathe i take you in
can't explain what i feel inside
and i wish that i could
just be the one with you all night
and when u wake up plz just know
ill be right there where you are
everyday, in every way,
u know that ilove you
dun go
i want you here with me
please stay
forever in my heart you'll be(thanks to ath for this line!!!)

and when u wake up plz just know
ill be right there where you are
everyday, in everyway,
u know that ilove you
and when the stars go up
i lie awake and tink about your face
the way u smile the way u laugh
the way u look at me and say....

my gosh me first and the gimmes gimmes end of the road...??? wtf song man... u guys seriusly wanna play this??? o well..... anyways.... took my incubus cd when going out with my parents... listened to old favourites like pardon me and idiot box... wow amazing stuff.. mike einziger is a genius... i just surfed guitargeek.com and saw his effects rack... fucken loaded with stuff man... my long term goal is to get all his effects.... haha den i can pleasure myself with all the weird sounds... hahah short term goal though is dat fucken ts-9..... fucken shitz...

ouh shit my fever is back.... i guess i wont go to skool tomorrow... again... haha weee... anyways... suppose to have jamming with the first chaps today but can't cause my family booked me already.... family come first in almost everything i do so.. sorry tweet... i just realised my schedule is freaking tight man.... last term our timetable was like 8 to 12... 8 to 11 but now 8 to 5 8 to 3 8 to 4... madness sia... no time to jam and no time to hang out with the kids... both my bands can only jam on weekends cause some members are tied with school and ns.... so its mad man... sheesh... gig coming in 2 weeks... and i'm writing a new song.. so we will be playing pretty much new stuff on this gig...hope it turns out well...

today... i made a bubble with my nose..!!

only a crazy person like me would leave a 300 cheque waiting at his workplace for over a week and still not collect it... hah... weeeeeeeee anyways have u guys ever been irritated by this one word.... this word makes me so sick and irritated that i pissed all over my underpants... yea man... this word is LERR.... knn i get this all over in msn.. ler this ler that ler this ler that... if ever that word comes out again.. i swear i'm gonna shat man... well anyways... suppose to be working.. but decided i'm too sick too work.. so called mashoor and here i am designing a header pic for my lame blog... decided it was too simple.... so shall be completed in a few mins

heh stole this from rabia's blog... unbelievable!!! we're playing!!

just typing in before i buzz of to skool.. been really sick the alst few days... fever reaching as high 39.5... so obviously did nothing except playing smackdown and need for speed on my ps.... but kept losing cause my head was feeling giddy ... so anyways after skool gonna go jamming ... reluctantly that is.... i'm like in totally no position to jam but have to sacrifice for the sake of band members who have been calling me non-stop while i was asleep the past few days... ok skool starts at 2 yet i'm still on my com typing this out... haha nice eh... so long..

*note1* girls are not animals in the zoo... do not wave at them if u do not know them....

*note2* do not pretend to be gay in public bus

*note3* fat apeks suck!

in visual basic class right now... can't wait for it to be over... its obvious that nobody is listening to the lecturer right now... all caught in their own world... jus end the damn thing larh

where did my 150 dollars go??

weeee wat a few days... didn't have much time to waste on my computer... cause since my black beauty came into my life.. i have other better things to do.. hehe so i just reached home from work ... a very exhausting day indeed.. so lets go back to the 31sof december 2003 shall we... so yeah the pit went really great... enjoyed it a lot... let me remember who the people were... yusoff,dan,din,alif,allen,kartika were there when i arrived.... den i left for sim lim square.... dun ask me wat i searched for... hehe so anyways when i returned... alan,id,sub,aizat,kyn and wada had joined the group... it was sure fun... hotdogs hotdogs and more hotdogs... laughed a lot talking crap with the guys... the only people who didn't seem to have fun were kyn and wada... but can't blame them ... we never layan them oso.. heh... so people came and people went.. zack and a one legged yazid came den the rch group den syahmi and his friends den wan captain and his clubbers den din berok and alam with his friend.... den fizah came with this cute girl ... donno her name... heh really cute.... den yan kopeng came.... threw him and zack in the water... rogol sam and din... and did other crazy things hehe haha and den i wanted to go to escape cause its 5 dollars man.. but nobody wanted to go with me.. so decided against the idea...

did not sleep... cause the tent was full of people and didn't even lie down till about 5 when me dan and yan went to cheers.. ate miyogo talk crap den met aizat,alam,alam's friend, kartika,allen, and walk walk at the swamp... nothing much there.. but the temptation to look back is really.. really... sheesh... so after that decided to go home cause i was really tired.... chilled with my black beauty for a while den slept...den worked on friday... and here we are... on saturday.... watching wrestling right now... interesting heh.. ahaha

today was fun really fun.. hehe jamming went well im really please about the way our new song is going.. got potential.. need some touching up... but anyways... after that went to parkway parade and 'shopped' at giant for the pit stuff... so much food.. hopefully little people.. hehe counting down the new year by the beach... well hopefully ar eh... so anyhows.. me,dan,din,kat,alip,allen and yan kopeng slacked at bk and talked cock and shit and stuff.. its really nice to talk cock..u guys should try it some time... heh so anyhows... i suddenly remembered a topic opened up by dan earlier today.. and it was about relationships... well for me i have not yet been in a relationship yet so i guess i'm pretty virgin about all this stuff... why am i still single? i donno.. maybe i'm shy.... maybe i'm a boring person... maybe i'm just too lazy and preoccupied with other stuffs or izzit possible that i'm gay??? hahaha no no... can't be.. i'm very attracted to girls... my first ever crush was when i was in sec 1... yeah that was like my biggest ever crush.... had it for 2 years.... had it through 2 of her bfs....had it through urmz... okie nvm.. well in sec 1 only one person knew about it... that faizal j a.k.a buluman... me and him were like bestfriends back then and we confided in each other a lot... back then she wore this distinctive yellow bag and whenever i saw it i would like freeze and my feet were like bound to the ground... haha yeah man that was mad stuff... hehe so yeah but in sec 3 we happened to be in the same class and watever attraction i had for her died at that time... so yeah sec 3 was a crazy year for us.... readjusting to a new environment and all ... so no girls really attracted me in sec 3.... that was by far my favourite year... ehehhe class chairman rafiee ... so anyhows... in sec 4 yeah... that mad year......

so it just so happens that we got to know all this sec 1 kids from 1e5 1n1 and so on and so forth... and i remembered during dnt the 1e5 class would walk by and we would all stand at the door looking at syiirin and dian.. ehahhae madness.. den there was athena... seriusly she scared me back then... and yeah i never noticed the 2 big pair of eyes that was looking at me in the number 3 bus... sampai kene tegur sak pat msn... hahha didn;t really know it belonged to dian farah... so yeah den we got to know the cedarianz... that was an even mad chapter in sec 4 history... all thanx to circles99 and he gift of irc... hehe i could enver forget suhailah and aqilah... both those girls will always be remembered.. haha den of kos lost contact with them... but yeah still the good thing about the whole episode is dat i befriended han... whom i still contact now... really cool girl who introduced me to finch and static lullaby and i introduced her to the local scene.... so yeah... and yeah how could i forgot that girl .... hmmmz dun wanna talk about it... made me a really big mess.... so screw u ok!! and den there was DEwi... hahah a small crush that escalated into one big embarassment for me... with friends like dan and allen who needs enemies?????? haiz that was like one totally mad year man... but for me it was the best experience and i would love to put on that tpss uniform and go to school again... seriusly i wood... i love those memories.... haiz... eheh so yeah thats my CcCrushes story... i dun have anyone in mind now though... would you be??? :)


wats with the misai man fie????

lal

phew... okie the past few days has gone passed without me even noticing it... well first on wednesday we beat team rockconcertheroes 11-5 i tink and i played 50 mins ... so yea i was very happy indeed... so went holiday on friday and came back yesterday.. wah interesting story heh??

hey guys its been awhile since ive updated.. been busy with work ... had no time to go online.... and yeah i made my first enemy at work.. that ice queen yati absolutely gives me the creeps man.. i can;t work with somebody who has a scowl on her face everytime and can't even seem to say a decent hello... hope i dun get paired with her again... so anyways

[.xra-fieex.] EXAM RESULTS OUT AND I FREAKING PASSED!!!!!! says:

wooohooo i passed my exams.... yey!! and i'm going to celebrate by playing with the east hammers 2morrow against team rock concert heroes in a friendly match.. been awhile since ive played so i'm definately looking forward to it.. YEY... and yeah i passed my ite .. yey!

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whoah yesterday was freaking tiring demoralising... first of all i had no shoes to wear.. cause my normal working shoes had muttered its last breath and died wagging its ugly tongue at me... so yeah i took my half dead adidas sneakers to work... lucky nobody noticed... so when i was about to start my shift.. i noticed that there was no more locker keys left... so i went to the lockers and put my bag in one of the vacant lockers which was not locked and went off to briefing in the hope to find somebody that i can borrow keys from... once the briefing was over and i had found a key... i realised my bag was nowhere to be found... so i panicked and told my supervisor.. and got a heck of a scolding for being so careless... so it turns out that some of the crew had found the bag and put it in the lost and found.... so yeah.. balls... had no mood at all to work after that.... especially when there a huge amount of people there... in total it was an average of 150 people an hour... so yeah it was freaking tiring... so anyhows...

gonna watch lord of the rings this sat.. anybody wanna join me???

shit its almost 3 am and here i am staring at her pic which is set as my desktop wallpaper... shes so pretty man i can't take my eyes of her.... haiz fish.. u lucky bastard u!!!!

i tink i'm sick... and dats sad... completed some parts of the underedge site... i'm moving the site to freewebs.. cause brinkster now has some stupid advertising banner... watching me, myself and irene now... jim carreys the shit~~~ yeah...

haiz madness... yesterdays jamming was fun... zack experimented with his zoom pedal.... made all sorts of weird sounds with it.. pretty cool... anyways going off on holiday on the 26th... to kl i tink.... hope i can buy a dgcam before the trip.. i wanna take pictures of the trip... but if i do not have enough money.. go kl den i buy ar... should be more cheaper over there....

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heh madness.....

breakfast sessions with my mother never fails to entertain me... its where she tells me some new stories... and so it goes on that my family on my dad's side used to live in tekong.. and all these islanders keep some very weird stuff and practice alot of majic.... majic that is used to harm people... or majic to benefit one's self.. like keeping ayuls to steal money and stuff... and thats the reason most of the elder aged people on my father's side had difficulty in dying... some are already on their death bed but can't seem to stop breathing.. u know the 'sakit tenat' ? i donno larhz... ehehe so yeah back then my late grandfather used to be a communist... and he inserted 'susuk' into his face to make him look very fierce.. and he even took some ilmu to make himself invisible.... awesome eh?? my mom told me he used to walk right into enemy headquarters without nobody seeing him.. i wonder what would i do if got to be invisible... hehe.. but nowadays of course... most have thrown away their "stuff".... i mean where do they wanna store them yeah? so yeah... maybe tonight i'll write more of this stuff... heck after all the ghost stories that i have collected the past few days from my relatives .. i donno if i'm gonna sleep tight today... after all.... two of my former houses were apparently part of a haunted area.... NOW THEN THEY TELL ME..... sheesh

anyways jamming in half an hrs time with the edgies.... i really wanna try stockholm syndrome man... one very awesome song....

just got back from hari raya outing with my family... came across many interesting things... one of which was a house (a kampong style house) which was situated right smack in the middle of a field surrounded by hdb flats in punggol... and yeah the field was about the size of 4 football fields combined and there right smack in the middle..... an uninhabited house..... hmmm mysterious...

"use me holly ..... c'mon and use me"

hey guys ...... getting ready to jalan raya for the last time this year... heck need some money so yeah.. SORRY DAN for not going to the gig..... if it was on any other day i swear i would have gone... so yeah yesterday after work.... met the guys and went to the starbucks opening.... and hey my fav ska band was performing... plan 2 fool... so yeah the crowd was lame.. wattya expect it? was at tm man.. hehe so yeah took some pictures... some of it was deemed rubbish and promptly deleted... (stares at alif).. so dats a good start to my photography career.. so anyways.. boo!!!

woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

the guys are out and i'm stuck here at home.... o well yesterday work was a breeze.... the kite flyer was easy to operate... not to mention it rained for about 2 hrs into my shift.. so yea lepak..... anyways..


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mY fav was donatello... but hey since when when am i a leader??

weee work starts in 45 mins... and i'm all set and ready to go.... the sky is dark and i'm hoping it will rain.... lepak sia if like dat... gaji buta.. hehe anyways.. it looks i wont be able to go see dan perform with the heroes this saturday.... many reasons come into mind.... work, family, and hazewan's going to join his brothers in arms, so hmmmz.. yeah hopefully i could go.... man my stomachs rumbling.. i just ate this cheese and egg pratha which costs 2 bucks and heck it was not worth it man... haiz anyways...



the mesh cap morons yea!!


heh...

ok looking at my list i know i'm pathetic-> upgrade computer.. vans xl2.... ps-2... electric guitar most probably will cost me $1500.... like as if i have dat much money.... my mom told me about some of my relatives... this guy married this woman who became insane... he used her for his sexual pleasure... the woman gave birth to 7 children... they were all given out... none of them stays with their mother.... the guy has no job... and he even married again... and his new wife gave birth.... and he still doesn't bother to find a job... so after hearing that story.. yeah i was taken aback... i mean here i am with a good life... and i further wanna throw my money away for some stupid stuff.. stuff which i dun need... o well this has been one emo entry... and yeah goodbye to her.. i tot she was the one... she no longer is... shes officially gone from my life... o well... who needs love to be happy...

its raining..... an ideal condition to work... unfortunately i'm not working today... so yeah that sucks....
have u gotten yours?????

this album just rulez man... i guess they have grown up and matured into brilliant songwriters... and heck yeah blink 182 almost broke up from wat i read because of boxcar racer.. lucky they didn't.... cause this album is great and they have become serius for a change... i really love stockholm syndrome and violence... very very very creative... i tink i wanna cover stockhome syndrome with with the edgies... hehex anyways those of you have so much time in your hands and are blink 182 fans... read this...
Kerrang interview

thursday's new album is not as awesome as their last.... i keep retracking to track no 1.... which is like my song of the month... heheaa anyways this song is dedicated to myself for earning the first 60 dollars of my pathetic working life... hahaha and i know now how difficult working life is... especially in escape... u have to wear a smile for the six hours that u are working... but that is simple for me... i am after all a fake smiler... so anyways... yesterday i 'worked' from 9 am to 12 am.... madness i tell you... but heck 70 bucks in my bag... and i earned it by drinking water and eating... whoooohoooo.... but seriusly i'm so freaking shagged.... not sure wat i wanna get from all this money.. kind of like the situation last year... wanted to buy new guitar.... in the end used all of the collection money to supplement myself in those six months of nothingness.. so this year..... granted i already have a job.... WEEE


wishlist

upgrade computer

vans xl2

ps-2

new electric guitar

blink 182 new cd




heck i'll be happy like bird if i even get one of these things...... not to mention all.. but knowing me i'll spent it all away~~~


thursday-for the workforce, drowning

Falling from the top floor your lungs

fill like parachutes

windows go rushing by.

people inside,

dressed for the funeral in black and white.

These ties strangle our necks, hanging in the closet,

found in the cubicle;

without a name, just numbers, on the resume stored in the mainframe, marked for delete.



please take these hands

throw them in the river,

wash away the things they never held

please take these hands,

throw me in the river,

don't let me drown before the workday ends.



9 to 5! 9 to 5!



and we're up to our necks,

drowning in the seconds,

ingesting the morning commute

lost in a dead subway sleep

we will not lie awake in our parents beds,

tossing and turning.

tomorrow we'll get up

drive to work,

single file

with everyday

it's like the last.

waiting for the life to start, is it always just ahead of the curve?



please take these hands

throw them in the river,

wash away the things they never held

please take these hands,

throw me in the river,

don't let me drown before the workday ends.



just keep making copies

of copies

of copies

when will it end?



it'll never end,

'til it gets so bad

that the ink fills in our fingerprints

and the silouhette of your own face becomes the black cloud of war

and even in our dreams we're so afraid the way we'll offset who we are

all those breaths that you took have now been canceled in your lungs.

last night my teeth fell out like ivory typewriter keys

and all the monuments and skyscrapers burned down and filled the sea.



save our ship

the anchor is part of the desk

we can't cut free,

the water is flooding the decks

the memo's sent through the currents

computers spark like flares

i can see them.

they don't touch me,

touch me.



please someone,

teach me how to swim.

please, don't let me drown,

please, don't let me drown.

been a long time since i last blogged.... i keep on forgetting to so anyways... yeah today work was mad... me.. a newbie got posted to the b-boat rides... and it was mad i tell you... non stop work... and i felt really thirsty and dehydrated.... those stupid kindergarten kids kept spraying water in my eye.... nabreys... but overall the work was pretty easy.. thx to yati who helped me out.... me being the forever belo person... heck i didn't even know how to operate the damn bumper boat... so when people asked me.. i just said push the button there ... and move the thing... hehehae mad sey.. blergh so anyways working 2morrow.... kiddy boat.. and i'm alone!!! sheesh.. ok nvm... going rayaing with mush in an hrs time... so yea chiowz.....

argh blardie sick... i completely ranap my computer communications... confirm fail one ar.... last minit revisitions can get u nowhere..... haiz must retake this module next year.... how?? like cheetolot like that.... all the simple thing oso i cannot remember.... farking disapointed with myself... than maths summore... aku serius cam tanak raya seh besok..... bodoh nye ite.... pla pundek argh!!!! mati mati mati..... maTII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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-- name: Ahmad Rafiee bin Abdullah

-- birth date: 11.06.1986

-- birthplace: kandang buffalo hospital

-- current location: pasir ris, singapore

-- eye color: blackish/brownish

-- hair color: black

-- height: 1.70m.

-- righty or lefty: righty

-- zodiac sign: gemini



Layer Two:

-- the shoes you wore today: the dust on my feet

-- your weakness: GIRLS!!!!!

-- your fears: GIRLS!!! and god, mostly god, but yeah GIRLS!!!!

-- your perfect pizza: super supreme

-- goal you'd like to achieve: become a rockstar/ go through life without studying and becoming rich by just being lazy



Layer Three:

-- your most overused phrase(s) on MSN: weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

-- your thoughts first waking up: argh damn it was just a dream

-- your best physical feature: my eyes... i guess.. and maybe my rabbit teeth

-- your bedtime: 11 lie in bed... 12 go to sleep

-- your most missed memory: MY SECONDARY SCHOOL DAYS



Layer Four:

-- in love?: yes!



Layer Five:

-- smoke: no

-- cuss: ape tu?

-- sing: all the time

-- take a shower everyday: mampos... soalan bonus

-- have a crush: nah... does having a crush on a famous movie start count?

-- do you think you've been in love: hello no..

-- want to go to college: fark studying

-- like(d) high school: Loved it!

-- believe in yourself: low self confidence levels

-- get motion sickness: nopez

-- think you're attractive: urms... i would if i had more weight...

-- think you're a health freak?: no

-- get along with your parent(s): yeapz...

-- like thunderstorms: yes.. nature is so beautiful

-- play an instrument: guitar, bass and beginning to learn drums



Layer Six:

In the past month...

-- drank alcohol: no

-- smoked: no

-- done a drug: PANA - dol

-- had sex: i wish..

-- made out: does my pillow count??

-- gone on a date: yes

-- gone to the mall?: like duh??

-- eaten an entire box of Oreos: nopez

-- eaten sushi: no, dammit stop making me feel hungry

-- been on stage: yeah...

-- been dumped: noooooo

-- gone skating: nopez



Layer Seven:

Ever...

-- played a game that required removal of clothing: helll no

-- been trashed or extremely intoxicated: NO

-- been caught "doing something": Nopez

-- been called a tease: no

-- got beaten up: no

-- shoplifted: NO

-- changed who you were to fit in: heck no.... posuer



Layer Eight:

-- age you hope to be married: now would be great

-- numbers and names of children: like to have 4... and name them rafiee 1,2,3,4

-- describe your dream wedding: by the beach... not in singapore!!

-- how do you want to die: when i have fulfilled everything i had hoped to be...

-- what do you want to be when you grow up: alive



Layer Nine:

In the opposite sex

-- best eye color?: blue

-- best hair color?: black

-- short or long hair: both

-- height: have to be shorter than 1.70

-- best weight: aiyo sensitive issue

-- best articles of clothing: shirt and jean...

-- best first date location: a really mad ska gig

-- best first kiss location: in my bedroom



Layer Ten:

-- # of drugs taken illegaly: zero

-- # of people I could trust with my life: one or twp.

-- # of CDs that I own: wahlowei.. many larh

-- # of tattoos: zero.. would like to have one

-- # of scars on my body: many larh...

-- # of birthmarks: one

-- # of things in my past that i regret:haiz...

just woke up... believe it or not.... my head feels freaking heavy.. and yeah aku nie tak puase nari.. so aku nie ngh mukan kuih tat jemput yeah??.. so anyways... last night i took a robitussin tablet for my cough and sore throat.... so during sahur... i woke up and headed to the toilet... and i started coughing... my vision started to blur and i felt as if the rugby world cup was going on inside my head... i almost collapse... but luckily for my mother... i didn't... I Love u Mum!!! so anyhows.. with my current state.. i forgot to niat so my mother say... kau gie makan sudah... and yeah.. hehe... obviously my mother wont let me join the guys for break fast session.... hope they have fun....

work starts on the 26th but i have a maths paper and it starts at 2.30 and ends at 4.30.... right smack in the middle of the morning shift and evening shift.... so i'm wondering how to get out of this mess... how? how? how?? u see ar... whenver i wanna start work... mesti ade hal... haiz.. ok urh i tink i wanna go back to sleep..

just finished adding some pages to the underedge site... my flash navigation bar went horribly wrong.... so the site currently has no navigation buttons.. hooray..!! haha anyways.. feeling proud of msyelf.. i managed to complete all 10 tutorials of my c com book in less than 2 hours.. plus all the notes i wrote down... eheh altogether 3 hours of studying... that is like more the most studying i have done in over a year... so yeah.. myabe just maybe i can pass the bloody ite exams and do not have to be retained in sec year... anyways.. 2morrow the boys breaking fast outside.. hope i can tag along but my parents are a big hurdle... okie now.. going to sleep.. chiowz

argh my throat is buggin me... i feel that as if a big tennis has been lumped in there.... urgh... well i slept the whole day... science paper was a bitch cause i did not study... regretted retaking o levels man... haiz.... now my ite exams are at risk... o well....

ah damn.... was editing the graphics for underedge webbie when photoshop crashed on me.. wahlowei... this sucks.. anyway guys here's a preview of the new ue site... Yow.... nothing much really.... been experimenting with flash... mayb i'll try and put some flash objects... but in the mean time.. its all graphics...

just got back from skool and heck the BIG maths test happened to be an open book test.. can't believe my luck... heheh so yeah most of the time tried to do by myself and apply the things that i have learned.. but heck screw DAT!... hehex so anyways chemistry paper 2 in an hours time.. sure flunk one.. o well....

so sleepy... 'tried' studying engineering maths but heck... nothing goes in... 2morrow is first maths test then chemistry o level exam... man studying sucks... school sucks.... life sucks... seriusly have no mood already... blergh and yeah this layout sucks... k i tink i wanna sleep now

wah kaus so tired....

friday: woke up at 9.30 and left the hosue for skool at 10. The lesson starts at 10 but.. u know.. ehhehe.... so anyways.... reached class at 10.30.... and at 11 can go back already cause class at 11 was cancelled... so yeah.. was pretty agitated.. so had nothing to do so fir suggested jamming... played hardcore and grindcore... asalboleh core pun we play.. hehe and we even have our own original!!! heeha madness.. so went back home after dat... went out again for tuition which me and allen decided to cabut.. played a few rounds of virtua striker before meeting the poly guys for our qiamulai.... hehe qiyam habis.. had our break fast at masjid taqua... den went to katong and played 2 hrs of battlefield... it was great fun.. but i kept dying... so yeah... blergh... went back to tampines at ard 11 plus... and slept at darul ghufran.. wah air con.. shiok sey... wanted to sleep but i couldn't cause this kids were making noises and stuff.. feel like wanna stuff my bag into their mouths... sheesh.. so stayed up and listend to ghost stories and talked about kiamat and all dat... THE SIGNS ARE THERE!! BERTAUBAT LAR WAHAI KAWAN KAWAN KU!!! haiz.. and yeah AKU ADE HP!!!! sape nak no aku... msg aku pat msn.. ok go!



saturday: so got up at 4 in the morning and sahured at the masjid.. eat together -gather... like fun like dat hheheh.... so walked out and it was really stranged to see the interchange so empty... it was a first for me actually... like ghost town like dat.. walked to faizal's house in simei.. and i borrowed his matrix reloaded cd... after dat went home.. and slept till about 11 i tink... siap here and siap there.. and went to the m&m infestation to buy my baju kurung .. my black kurung cost 80 bucks.. but my father willing to pay so heheh belik lar eh!! after dat went round the bazaar ... so many whammax.. but strangely little m&ms... i guess they only go out at night..

bought deng deng, ramlee burger and mutton chop.. so reached home and break fast.. wahlowei so full..... knnbreys... so went jamming with the underedgies... was sucky at first.. cause zack nye guitar buat hal... first takde bunyi.. pastu gadjet habis battery.. pastu string pulak putus... haha macam siak... so was fun eventually.. some kids even sang along to our cover of ss9's dreaming... wah they clap some more... so happy sey!! hehehe den completed our newest original... haven write the lyrics yet... but i'm sure its gonna be nice.. tHx yazid for helping us out.... u rock brader!! heheh so yeah reached home at 11 plus... and slept and slept.. and here i am today~~

haiz... i feel so depressed... i'm confused... i tried retracing all the words that i said to her... wat exactly did i say dat made u blew up? watever it is i'm sorry... i really am... o well.. good night

this has got to be the ultimate love song.. haiz..


"My Anne"

Darling I want to make the word "love" new

cause it's been said so many times

And I don't want to use that old pick up line

And oft' I try to find the words to use but none capture the way I feel

When I gaze at your smile it seems like I'm out flying a sunset skyline

You've stolen my eyes, I stare at what I can't describe. I guess I tried



Look in my eyes. It's not hard to realize I'm the one who loves you

And though you'll never know my heart, my complete feelings

Just know you'll never be alone



Words keep cluttering in my mind as I persist in this futility

But no vocabulary could ever represent the beauty I see

You're everything and more than I could want you to be

And in your face what do I see?



It's like a rainbow in my mind, like when the daylight starts to die

Just like a landscape catching rain

or like a snow glazed mountain face

Like Charlie Chaplain, like clapping one hand,

my love can not be heard

And all those love songs, they come out all wrong

cause there's just no such word, my Annie



Look in my eyes.

It's not hard to realize I'm the one who loves you

And though you'll never know my heart, my full emotion

Just know you'll never be alone, my Annie

scv is being a bitch... audioreload usually takes 10 secs to load.. now its has been 10 full mins and it still has 58 items left to dwl... motherfcuk.. and yeah PMS SUCKS!!! they make girls go crazy... argh schtooopid!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

hahahha cannot tahan man lauff at this pic ... hehhe wadi wadi....

o well was fooling away at my photoshop... totally forgot my studies and here are some of the results.. heheh madness.. i have never been good at this stuff...




haiz.. i ahve no life.... peace!

Underedge- tuesday morning



lost in a world of my own

its another one of those mornings

where i can't wait to come back home

tired of sitting and waiting

deluded deflated demoralised

and feeling alone again



but then i can't believe my eyes

a figure took me by surprise

i would have sweared aloud

but i can't even seem to catch my breath

a goddess of arabian descent

looking stunning in her yellow vans

and i wish i could force a smile





wish i could be the one to pick her up everyday

wish i could be the one to kiss her good night

but even though i know i could never be

but whos to say i can't dream...

i'll say goodbye for now

i'll hope to see you again...


jkurh i know its lame.. ive not wrriten much songs about the opposte sex so yeah there is a beginning to everything but i just thought it was cool to write a song about what happened just now... hehe korang teke ar ape jadik eh... anyways jessica alba is on the cover of maxim!!! MUST BUY!!! hahaha siak despo sak rafi!! but hey thats the joy of being single.. u can ogle at girls and u dun ahve to feel guilty about it... hehe.. ;)

hahaha madness i accidentally deleted my template while i was changing the title of the blog... and i actually pressed save... so now its gone!!! and i have to redo my blog.. so this is the temporary layout.. hehe anyways...





isn;t she fucken amazing??? haiz...

heheheh.. well today spent time with my polytechnic friends.. mustafa, saifudin, faizal and rashid... i had a blast of a time.. hardly a sec that goes by without us breaking into laughter... hehehe love them lots... after all.. it has been a very long time since i hung out with them... hehex ite exams in 2 weeks time... and had 2 class tests just now... screwed lar eh... so yeah gonna hit the books now!!

weeee wat a fun 2 days i had... thursday.. was maths paper 2.... and hell i don wanna talk about it.... so calm my brain by watching the matrix revolutions with some people... wah So boring sia the show... only the last part gerek.... so that night went jamming... and another new original is completed... i'm really happy with it... but den the lyrics haven siap so... gonna work on it soon.. so anyways.... wasn't really happy with myself.. said stupid things to her... wanted to say something really nice but ended up saying the opposite... not sure if shes mad or ..... aiyah... haiz... but den hehe she is still cute as ever.... i try m best not to stare at her but i always fail.... k i'm talking crap... i really need some growing up pills... fast !!!

so today.... school was okie... really miss hanging out at the canteen.... but nvm .. i gotta see the jessica alba of ite tamp and yea that totally made my day man... haiz.. pretty awesome shit !!! hehehe so anyhows the job interview at escape turned out to b a laughfest.... the manager really ar... made jokes untill mad ar... the questions was little.. but den he talk a lot ar... hehe my sec job interview there... hope i get this time... haiz so after all dat... here i am listening to slick shoes and craigs brother!! whooo 2 of the most awesome punkrock bands ever!!! pretty awesome shit... and yey! besok buke luar!!! weeeeeeee okie go!!

been 'bunge' this past few days.... all of a sudden people's words hurt me very easily.. and its frightening... donno why.... haiz.. anyways... just read audioreload's forum and auditions for the afua gig this dec have been closed so i guess i'm free this saturday.... not sure going where.. wat i know is i wanna break fast outside... mayb with the my new ite friends... or with my boys... most probably the latter... reason being.. with them.. i dun have to come out with much money.. which means.. my savings will increase which means... i can have my chuckies and plain sunset shirt by next week... hooray~~!!~~ lalalla lash... nieways... 2morrow is maths paper 2.. and i'm totally screwed... i know i'm gonna fail... but i hope i fail with dignity.. d7 would be nice... hehe so yeah...

got a really short hair cut today... suddenly my head feels a lot lighter... hehe needed a change.. so yeah... but i wish it was much shorter though.. anyhows... i'm invited to watch a movie with some people 2morrow.. the thing is.. i dun have the dough... well i do.. but hmmz... lets jus say its hard for me to part with 8 bucks.... o lash... i nEED NEW guITAr StrInGs.. its near impossilbe to play guitar w/o the 4th string .. gonna buy soon.. and i need cash... really need a whole lot of cash... WHoLE lOTTA oF CaSH!!

nofx totally rocks... hahah till today i tot they were crap... cause i dwlded all those ska songs from them.. but today fir lend me his nofx cd... and yeah they are awesome... but most real i'm still high on best interest one god reason has been playing on my playlist since forever man.... so anyways 2 more days to maths paper 2.... i have no motivation to study i mean.. its over and done with.. i'm failing....... so screw it.... haiz... the guys are out now.. donno wat they doing.... i'm missing underedge... and really missing badly...... can't believe my friends comment on us whenever we wanna jam 'asik jam jek... jgn buang duit ar..' this lar dat lar... but its been so long since we've been jamming... it was like weeks ago and hell yeah... i dun count the days we jam without our AWOL bassist... haha when was the last time he jammed with us... hmmmmmmz o well... lucky we have din!! we love u beb!! so anyways so much for support from our friends yeah?? hhehe ok man dwlding fifa2004 gonna play it soon.. cheerios

physics was killer!!!!!!!!! in the middle of the paper i swear i had tots of killing myself.... right there then... urgh... another missed chance.. so i guess.. i'll be in ite next year.... gonna ahve to wait several more years before realising my dream of going poly... haiz.... well maths was manageable though... but still.. haiz... no hope lar.... gonna go sleep now...

[listening to blink 182- dysentary gary]

weee this songs really rocks.. maybe i'm gonna go to cash coverters one of this days and find a sec hand blink 182 enema of the state cd... i used to have it but i'm struck with this anti-blink 182 syndrome... i lost my enema of the state... and my toypaj cd got scratched really bad... den it got broke in half... madness... and when i wanted to buy dude ranch... it never seems to appear in every cd shop i go to.. but when i havve spent all my money... the cd pops out everywhere... leeesh... o well... the guys went to break fast outside.. maybe at geylang... not sure though...o well hope they have fun.... o levels in 2 days time... i dun deserve to have fun... hehe o well....
me and my fav friend farhan khamis... hehe