i am shagged to the power 10000.
school and work is taking its toll.

But its all good.
and im not particularly complaining about it.
working at borders is extremely fun.
and my tp classmates are a dream.

the only thing that worries me though is that i am lagging behind in my studies.
which reminds me, term tests are coming.
dig dig dig
mug mug mug.
u can do it rafiee!!!

The only bright thing i see out of it all is a much needed two weeks break.

ok back to my wrtoral project.

i am so mentally and physically exhausted.

argh!!!

i recreated my friendster just for the sake of my lovely classmates
and i cant get over how stupid it still is.

today was officially the first day that i started to really understand about logic gates and matrices and equation whatever.
good thing cause quizes start next week.
and after hearing mustafa's lecture on future oppurtunities, i am determined as ever to get this dumb diploma.

the parents finally know i inhale smoke as a pastime.
my mum looks really affected by it.
but they haven really said anything.
waiting for the right time i guess.
and whats with parents opening up your letters.

its sunday
soccer cancelled again!!!!!
what do i have to do to kick a ball nowadays dammit.
gonna have to go and do some hard studying now.
family is off to jurong bird park for family day.
maybe i should have gone.

ive never felt so tired in such a long time.
buttttt i feel so damn satisfied.

working at borders has been a joy so far.
the managers are nice.
and from the looks of it, colleagues are awesome as well.
one particular 'genit' girl especially. :P
but den again its early days.

took a look at my schedule next week.
will be reaching home late almost everyday.
term tests are coming.
hope i can pull through.

anyway favourite band and song of the week.

me and is went driving around cause i was so bored.
used up nearly $20 in petrol.
but at least im more knowledgeable now.
hope i dun forget how to get around in the future.

i hate the feeling of being empty and alone.
kesepian. kesunyian.
i miss sleeping besides my friends in those bunks.
i miss talking to people and laughing untill 3am in the morning.
how i miss those times.
lonelylonelylonely

jon chan said it beautifully.

"someone to have
someone to find
someone to share your peace of mind
someone to have
someone to hold
someone to say yes and to say no"

anyways i passsed my first ever quiz in tp!!!
hoooooooray for that.
it actually gives me hope and inspiration for the next 3 yeaars of this life..
i really need to dig in.
but i cant seem to.

DISTRACTIONS DISTRACTIONS DISTRACTIONS.

"Remember, patience is the key to her heart; be like that gardener watching a fruit as it hangs on the tree, day after day admiring it, but, exercising tremendous self-discipline, neither feeling the fruit, nor pinching it, nor testing it to see if it is ready. And then, one day he holds out his hand and the fruit simply drops into it, ripe, warm and eager to be eaten..."

patience, patience

soccer cancelled again.
thank you all for being such bitches.

made my first borders money today.
and i earned it by listening to the manager ramblin on and on abt store policies.
but hey free food and cute chicks.
im enjoyin my new job very much.


anyways call me slow, but jimmy eat worlds new album just kicks ass so much.

anyways i donno how im going to do it but i am hoping to just really remove all the distractions from my life.
even though i hate what im studying now, bo pien bo pien must get that that diploma.
for the sake of my not so bright future.
i need to dig deep.
endure endure endure.

school, band, work.
priorities.


the best lesbian band ever.

shutterbug.
cool band name or what.

argh im so behind in schoolwork its not even funny anymore.
and with the added responsibilty of having a part time job in the horizon.
i am so in deep.
and yes.
underedge is officially dead.
thx for the memories. rashid,syadie,dan,zura.
i had fun.
me and zack will be going gruesome twosome from now on.
and maybe just maybe hopefully zura may join us in the quest for musical greatness.
o well

heres an awesome twosome.

best band in the world.
period.